you told me not to leave this timeafter you kissed me.
you told me to stay because you
hate waking up alone.
i'm sorry, but today you will be,
because i left as soon as the light
touched my eyes and i finished
gently cleaning the little scrapes
below yours.
i just couldn't stand to leave you like that.
and i'll probably never forget your face
when i lifted myself from your bed
for what i kept telling myself
would be the last time.
you were fast asleep, but
it was like you could sense that i
was leaving you,
because you frowned so deeply.
and i heard you mumble,
"jaebal kajima."
i thought you'd woken up at first
and i froze in place,
but you kept your eyes closed,
mumbling as you reached out for me.
but i dodged your arms
and handed you my pillow
and you held it close.
i didn't even realize i was crying until
i bent over your sleeping form
and kissed your wound
and one of the tears dropped onto it
and your face softened.
"saranghaeyo," i whispered,
but only because
i knew you couldn't hear,
and i could never say them
to where you could,
and i didn't know how
i'd ever be able to live with myself
if i didn't voice them
at least once.
will you be mad at me again
when you wake up?
probably...
i left without looking back,
quietly walking into my apartment.
seokjin-oppa and taehyung-oppa
have yet to wake up,
just like the rest of the world.
it's so silent here.
the silence scares me,
because
it forces me to think.
and once i start thinking,
i can't stop.
and now i'm crying again.
oh, how i've come to hate the silence...
i wonder what you needed to
talk to me about.
last night, i was so wrapped up in you
that i forgot to ask.
but maybe it's better this way.
maybe we should stay silent
and just speak through
glances and notes.
at least until
i can somehow
fall out of love with you
and you can
stop kissing me
and making me fall even more.
-k.m.a
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suicide notes 「 jungkook 」
Fanfiction❝ usually, when people say they want to be alone, they don't mean it. they're just angry because they've been sad for so long . ❞ ❝ what would you know about that ? ❞ in which a strange girl leaves notes for the broken so they can make it through t...