they keep telling me to give up on you,
that you're bad for me,
that you don't want saving.
but they don't know you.
they don't know that you
always wanted to be saved.
you always needed someone
to help you.
you told me so yourself
in that song you wrote about me,
the one you showed me
that first time
you kissed me.
i keep thinking back to that day,
how beautiful you looked in the light
from the open window,
the dreary overcast outside,
how your voice was like an angel's,
your eyes dark with all your demons,
how it felt to know you cared enough about me
to inspire art,
how you made my heart race,
my cheeks blush a million different shades.
you really always were so beautiful.
beautiful enough to bring a tear to the eye.
beautiful enough to make birds sing for you.
beautiful enough to trace new constellations,
form new galaxies in the sky.
now, tell me . . .
how could i
simply
'give up'
on someone
like
that?
and it's certainly taken some time,
but . . .
i think
it all makes sense now.
i think
i figured something out
from watching the hands
on my clock
tick in the silence
in vicious cycles that will never end
like we do.
in order to cease the cycles,
stop time from ticking away,
something crazy has to be done.
and i've done everything i
could possibly do.
except . . .
admit my feelings for you.
i know you're an hourglass,
and i can see the grains of sand
quickly diminishing.
if i tell you that i love you,
will it stop time?
i can't stop doubting
if you'll accept me,
if it will be enough even if you do,
if i haven't already run out of time.
in this moment, i would give anything
to know what the outcome will be
in the end.
i would trade everything i own.
but i can't.
even still, if this is the only thing i
haven't tried,
the only thing i
can do now . . .
i'll take my chances.
i'll risk it all for you.
i can only pray
that it won't worsen things
even further.
-k.m.a
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suicide notes 「 jungkook 」
Fanfiction❝ usually, when people say they want to be alone, they don't mean it. they're just angry because they've been sad for so long . ❞ ❝ what would you know about that ? ❞ in which a strange girl leaves notes for the broken so they can make it through t...
