Dear You #Wattys2016

Third Letter

3rd Letter

Dear You,

Tanga na kung tanga, di ko rin alam kung bakit ko to ginagawa, I shouldn't make this effort Raf but I want to. Para sa ikakatahimik ng puso ko, I will be stupid for the last time Raf. My friends went berserk when they found out kung ano ang nangyari sa atin. Some of them told me 'I told you'. Some of them comforted me and told me that everything's gonna be fine, babalik pa daw ang lahat. Babalik pa ba talaga? Parang di na Raf, ayaw ko narin

Masisisi ko ba sila? Masisisis ba natin sila? Ofcourse they have the right to be like that, after all, naging malapit karin sa kanila

Remember when you first met them? I mean my two best of friends.

I should have kept my mouth shut but no Raf, I told you I will tour you around Pampangga, eh wala nga akong masyadong alam sa lugar nato, I'm not the type of person na para lakwatsa, nasa bahay lang talaga ako. I'm a home buddy person and you know that Raf, you know every single detail about me

"Ohmygosh! Sino ba talaga yang pinapagandahan mo et? At may tour ka pang nalalaman ha!" sambit ng isa sa mga closest friends ko na si Ciara. Dinala ko rin sila with me since I'm not familiar in Pampangga kase di naman talaga ako taga dito, I'm originally from Cebu and yes Raf, you knew it

"Tumahimik ka nga, it's just someone" nahihiya kong sagot. Yes, whenever I talk about you sa friends ko, my heart always beat this fast Rafael, yung parang lage nalang akong kinakabahan na anytime, aatakihin ako ng kilig ko

You always make my heart flutter, you always make me blush until you destroyed it, until you destroyed me slowly

"Hayaan mo na nga lang yang amiga natin, atleast makakaget over narin siya sa bantot niyang ex" humahalakhak na sabi naman ni Winona, one of my loudest friends

"Ha? Aba, matagal na akong nakaget over dun noh!" sagot ko sa kanila. Yes, I never actually told you this much Raf. I'm quite hook with my ex pa, maraming nangyari sa ex ko, you didn't know it since you didn't bother asking me. Ni pangalan, di mo nagawang itanong

I loved my ex more than you ever thought Rafael but then again, you don't know. You don't know anything about it since you didn't bother asking me

"I'm so dead curious na kung sino talaga siya! Gwapo ba siya et? Mabait? Smart ass like your stupid ex?" tanong ni Ciara while we were waiting for you and right then right there Raf, they were quite speechlesss

The moment you arrived, nakanganga sila, not because of admiration, well yes, they admired you kase medyo gwapo ka, medyo lang sa kanila. But for me, you were the most handsome creature, alam mo yun, I always tell you how handsome you are

Pero nakanganga sila dahil they didn't imagine I will like a guy like you, don't get me wrong. You were handsome, chinito pa nga eh pero you are the boy that always scream for danger. Oo, ikaw yung typical badboy, bakit nila alam? You had a tattoo for goodness sake, well di naman ganun ka rami at kalaki, there was a tiny triangle tattoo in your hand and may earings ka pa sa isa mong tenga, a black magnetic earring. But still, you are a badass

And alam ng lahat Rafael, I'm not the type who would go for guys like you, like they said, my ex was pretty decent, smart, rich, generous, humble pero minsan suplado din but he was totally different from you. You were totally different from all the guys I've dated before

You were my excemption, too bad, I was not yours

"Hi guys" nakangiti mong bati sa mga kaibigan ko and ofcourse to me, we were quite staring until Winona interrupted

"Hi! I'm Winona, super duper bestfriend ni Amber, who are you?" pambungad na bati ni Winona sayo

"Hi, I'm Rafael. Nice to meet you" nagpakilala narin sayo si Ciara and after the introductions we had our tour

We brought you to the basic places that any person will bring you, pumunta rin tayo sa isa sa mga favorite spots namin, I get to introduce you to my world, well, half of it since di naman talaga ako taga Pampangga

"I wish I could bring you to Cebu, mas maganda dun kesa dito" nakangiti kong sambit habang naglalakad tayo patungo sa 5th destination natin

"Well, you could, some day" sagot mo sa akin and I was damn happy that time Rafael because I thought you mean it, but you didn't

"Ano ba yan, mamaya na muna ang lablab guys" tuksong sambit ni Ciara sa atin

The day was exhausting since we went to 6 places in just a day, pinilit nating magkasya sa isang araw kase by tomorrow aalis ka na, sobrang bilis ba?

Yes, aalis kana nun Raf and I thought hanggang dun lang tayo but no, we continued the story we're supposed to end by that time

"Bakit aalis ka na agad bukas Rafael, ano ba yan? Di ba pwedeng extend?" sambit naman ni Winona while we were eating dinner in Mcdonald's, we were at the mall since again, ito namang malapit sa hotel niyo

"Too bad I can't, uuwe na kami ni Mommy bukas and ayaw niya akong hayaan na magpaiwan muna since you know, ako lang naman anak ni Mommy, sobrang higpit" natatawang sambit mo sa amin, that was the first time you shared something personal to me, to us Rafael

That was the start of me wanting to get to know you better, better than ever and that was the start of something we couldn't control

Hinatid kita sa hotel since my friends said they have to go home na daw, but we knew better, na hinayaan lang nila tayo to have our own "alone time"

"Bye, I had fun. Nice meeting you Rafael" I said while showing my wide smile at you, I was shining, I know it Rafael since I can see it in the way you look at me. It was the best stare Raf, hindi ko alam kung bakit nagbago ang mga tingin mo sa akin

You used to look at me that way, you used to look at me like I'm the girl you truly love and will love for the rest of your life

"Thank you for today Amber. Really. I wish I could stay" You said sounding so disappointed, I was too Raf, but I didn't want you to know, since it was a sign of weakness for me. I was always that weak when it comes to you

And we bid our goodbyes. Goodbyes that turned into new beginnings

Patulog na ako nung you texted me, those words Rafael, those words that keeps on haunting me. I shouldn't have read it, I shouldn't have replied. I should have ended it as soon as you said it but no Raf, I couldn't because I just couldn't do it

Rafael John Madrigal:

Goodnight babe. I'm gonna miss you. Thank you for today again. I love you

and just like that, just like that I found myself saying

Me:

Goodnight too babe. I love you too

-Amber