Dear You #Wattys2016

Fifth Letter

5th Letter

Dear You,

So the next day was scheduled to me, you asking me questions, the start was fine, tulad ko tinanong mo rin ako kung ano yung top 5 sa bucket list ko

Me:

1.Makapunta ng Korea and Japan

2. To get my own house

3. Makapublish ng libro

4. To have a nice job and to pursue counseling

5. Makapunta din ng Greece and Jerusalem

Those were the top 5 at that time, well hanggang ngayon naman, di parin nagbabago ang mga gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko, well honestly, medyo may slight changes nung dumating ka sa buhay ko. Some of my plans got changed but I will not tell you what were the plans Rafael, not yet

You knew what my favorite color was, my favorite thing to collect, my favorite past time when I am bored. You knew very well that I love chicken, spicy foods and coffee

Alam na alam mo rin na mahilig ako sa chocolates.

You knew things that I also knew about you pero hanggang doon lang pala yun Rafael

Di ka man lang masyadong nag effort para mas kilalanin pa ako. You never asked what are the things that always bother me, must ba ang highschool life ko. Are my friends real to me?

Pero syempre, alam mo rin Rafael yong mga personal na bagay

You also knew my birthday. Mine is at September 18 while yours was November 22.

You knew I have a brother

You knew we were so close as bread and butter

Alam mo rin na mas close ako sa mama ko, not because you asked me but I told you

Oo, nakakatangang isipin na ngayon ko lang nalaman o narealize that you weren't that interested to ask, I was just so open to you that I get to tell you almost everything

Almost. Buti nalang at di lahat lahat binigay ko na sayo

There again, another flaw Rafael. Unti unting nabubuksan natin ang mga flaws. You never asked me a lot. You were never that open, it's just that sometimes, ako nalang talaga ang nagkukusang magkwento kahit parang di ka naman interesado

That night was another amazing night of our lives. You called to check up on me. Medyo nagtagal tayo sa telepono

I remember you telling me these words Rafael, these words na gusto kong ibato sayo

Rafael John Madrigal

Baka naman mahulog ako at walang sasalo ah?

Me:

Meron nga yan, baka nga ako ang di masalo eh

And I was damn right Rafael. Curse you. Kase akala mo walang sasalo pero meron. And that person was me. I caught you open arms Rafael. I loved you with all my heart and soul

Pero di mo ako sinalo, akala ko sinalo mo ako pero di pala. You might caught me, pero di mo nasalo ang buo

You just liked what you wanted to like

The others are just pointless

And that's what I want to tell you Rafael, lahat ng bagay may katuturan. Buong pagkatao ko ang dapat mong minahal. You told me you like me but you only did like what you wanted to like

That isn't love Rafael. Di iyon pagmamahal

But then I was a fool of it and I was a fool to believe in all of your words

Sabihin nating, tottoong minahal mo ako, naramdaman ko naman yun eh. Pero iyon nga Raf, may expiration date pala yong pagmamahal mo sa akin

Sana naman pinaalam mo agad but instead I was a fool to believe that we could last. Di man ako naniniwala sa forever but I believe in lifetime, I believe in growing old with the person I love, I believed that it was you

But foolish me

-Amber