Dear You #Wattys2016

Seventh Letter

7th letter

Dear You,

You must hate me so much right now cause I keep calling you Rafael. Nalaman ko last night that you didn't wanna be called Rafael, nasanay ka rin kase that people are calling you by your second name, John

Honestly, nung mga time na yun, I wanted to be the person, only the person who calls you Rafael pero ayokong magalit ka sa akin kaya I pushed myself to call you John

Since that night, I started calling you John

But this time it's different, I'm calling you Rafael. I don't care if you don't like it. Kaya nga tinatawag kitang Rafael, I wanted you to hate me, I wanted you to feel what I'm feeling right now

Hanggang ngayon, I still couldn't believe it

Naalala mo pa ba nung mga unang linggo, unang buwan na magkakilala tayo?

We were quite romantic. You were quite sweet

I still remember how you usually say your good mornings

Rafael John Madrigal :

Goodmorning babe! Have a great day and enjoy it. Lage kang mag iingat ah. Don't stress yourself too much. Wag na wag karing magpapalipas ah? I'm actually getting ready for school. Text ka agad pag nabasa mo na to ah? Mahal na mahal kita cutiebabe ko, Amber ko at mundo ko

:****

Syempre, di naman ako nagpapahuli sayo non

Me:

Goodmorning babe, kakagising ko lang din. Yes po, I will. You too, take care of yourself. Maliligo narin ako tapos punta na ako sa ojt ko :) Mahal din kita babe ko, John ko at lover boy ko :*

It was like my morning breakfast that keeps me awake and energetic every single day. That was your impact to my life Rafael. I don't know kung ganun ba ako sayo. Kung ganon mo ba ako ituring. If my goodmorning texts make you smile just like how wide my smile was

Even your goodnight texts are messages that keeps me smiling while sleeping, having good dreams and my stress reliever

Rafael John Madrigal:

Goodnight babe, thank your for your time. I miss you :( Sweet dreams and lage kang mag iingat ah? Mahal na mahal kita my queen, Amber ko at mundo ko :***

Me:

Goodnight rin babe :) Thank you too. Sweet dreams my love and dream of me hahah. Mahal din kita John ko, babe ko at lover boy ko :*

We were that sweet and loveable Raf, I was happy and contented of what we had

Kahit di pa tayo nun, everything was great. I was enjoying every bit of it

Until everything changed. Di ko alam, hangggang ngayon kung bakit ba talaga Rafael. You never did answer my question, you always changed or avoid the issue

Baka iyon din ang naging simula, because we were trying to avoid it hanggang sa lumaki na ang issue and we couldn't control it anymore

But I did have a lot of great memories

Remember the first night you sang me a song?

We were actually skyping that night, yes, lage lage na tayong nag sky-skype cause you always wanted to see my face. Sobrang kinikilig ako sa tuwing nagsasabe ka ng

"Pwedeng mag skype tayo babe? I just want to see your face"

Thinking about it now makes me smile, a painful smile

I was asking you to sing me a song, akala ko di mo ako susundin but then you asked me kung ano ba ang gusto kong ipakanta sayo

Then I told you that you can choose whatever you want to sing.

I remembered every line of it

Ikaw ang pag ibig na hinintay, puso ay nalumbay ng kay tagal

Ngunit ngayoy andito na ikaw, ikaw

Ang pag ibig na binigay, sa akin ng maykapal, biyaya ka sa buhay ko, ligaya't

pagibig koy ikaw

I smiled, biting my lower lip while you were singing the song Raf

I didn't want you to know that I was so damn starting to like you more at that time

Kahit di ka masyadong singer, the fact that you sang, the fact that you made me melt was loveable, sino bang babae ang di mahuhulog nun

You even sang that night your favorite song, well actually one of your favorite songs

I wanna make you smile whenever you sad

Carry around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

Di mo na natuloy kase nakalimutan mo na yung ibang lyrics and we both just laughed

Paborito mo yun since Adam Sandler, your favorite actor sang it in your favorite movie at all time which was the "50 first dates"

Hanggang ngayon nakatatak parin yun sa isipan ko Rafael, all the songs you sang, all of your favorite movies, characters, artists

Naalala ko rin nang kinantahan mo ako ng "Magkabilang Mundo"

I told you it was our theme song which you agreed

Masyadong mahalaga sa akin ang kantang yun, that everytime I hear it, napapangiti nalang ako out of nowhere, na para na tuloy akong baliw

But those moments Raf, our moments. I always treasure it

Naalala ko rin na palagi mo nalang akong pinapakanta ever since you heard me sang

I remember the first song I sang to you, I was quite nervous kase first time kong kantahan ang isang lalake, my ex didn't got to hear me, well he heard me pero di yung pareho sa atin, that it was you and me

You are the song playing so softly in my heart

I reach for you, you seem so near yet so far

I hope and I pray that it'll be you and me someday

I know deep inside you are mine and I'm yours true love

That song brings back a lot of memories Raf, kahit ngayon, kahit naririnig ko siya sa playlist ko. I can't delete it, di ko alam bakit. But I just can't delete these songs in my life that easily

Just like I can't forget you exist in my life that easily. I'm not like you

I want to forget you Raf, so bad. That's why I'm tossing every memories I had with you

For you to understand. For me to forget

But I guess I can't

-Amber