Dear You #Wattys2016

Eight Letter

8th letter

Dear You,

I still wonder when did our small fights became big. When did it all started to messed up

Baka naman ever since day 1, we are bound to end this way

I still remember the first real fight we had, I mean, di nga masyadong seryosong away yun but that was the first time you got mad at me

Wala kaming magawang kabuluhan ng roommates ko nun, I remember that night that just out of the blue naisipan namin ni Ciara na bumili ng maiinom and we'll get ourselves drunk for the night

Hindi ko alam, hindi naman ako brokenhearted, I guess my body was just looking for the alcohol. Kaya bumili kami nun ng isang Emperador, oh diba masyado kaming hard drinker

I didn't got to tell you that we we're drinking, nasabi ko nalang sayo nung nagsisimula na kaming uminom

I asked you if you were okay with it then you said, okay lang basta di lang ako mag lalasing

I believed it, I thought it was really okay with you

Not until nagsimula na akong maging tipsy, I can still text you clearly pero you we're doubting na baka drunk na ako

I always tell you na di pa ako lasing

Hanggang sa tuluyan kang tumawag, I guess you wanted to check up on me after telling you that I was starting to feel dizzy

"Are you okay?" malumanay na sambit mo the moment I answered your call

"Yeah...Just a little bit dizzy" medyo nahihilo kong sambit sayo nun, I remember sitting in the stairs outside our room because I can't hear you clearly in the room kase nag iingay na ang mga roommates ko dahil sa kalasingan nila

"Your drunk" it wasn't a question, you said it in a matter-of-fact way

"I'm not" pagtatanggi ko na naman even though I knew for myself that I was starting to get drunk pero kaya ko pa naman

"Next time, don't drink that much, matuto kang mag pass. You are clearly drunk babe and I don't want you drunk because I'm not there" seryosong sambit mo nun, you sounded so irritated, alam ko namang naiinis kana sa fact na lasing ako eh, but I liked it. I bited my lip para magpigil ng kilig. I was damn happy because you felt that way

"I told you babe, I'm not drunk" nakangiti kong sambit sayo nun but I know you are not convinced

"Basta, wag ka ng mag iinom. Just go wash yourself up bago ka matulog okay? Para di masyadong worse ang hangover mo" sambit mo sa akin and I was smiling like an idiot

"Babe, I can't wash up. I'm so dizzy and I can't stand straight. I just want to sleep" sambit ko naman sayo and that was the truth, I can't stand up properly. Narinig kitang napabuntong hininga ka nalang

"See? Paano kung may nangyari sayo? Tapos lumabas ka pa ng kwarto, go back to your room and just sleep it off" sambit mo naman sa akin but I was a hardheaded girl, alam mo yun, ever since that day you know that I was a hard headed girl

"Okay lang naman ako, I can manage and besides I can't hear you sa loob" sambit ko naman sayo nun and you got irritated more

"Wag ka na talagang mag iinom especially when I'm not there. Go to sleep na, magpahinga ka na" sambit mo sa akin, alam kong you were just worried but I didn't like the idea that you wanted me to sleep already

"Ayaw mo na ba akong kausap? At pinapatulog mo na ako?"

"No! It's not like that, naman eh. Gusto lang kitang magpahinga na kase lasing ka na. I want you to rest" but still di parin naibsan ang pagkairita ko sa sinabe mo

"I said I can manage, ayaw mo na talaga ata akong kausap eh at gusto mo nalang akong matulog" pagmamaktol ko sayo, I guess it was the alcohol that made me to act that way

"Babe naman...It's not like that. I love you.." pagsusuyo mo sa akin and honestly Raf, I melted. Ganun naman parati eh pag nagaaway tayo, just an "I love you" from you and all my anger will just melt. Nawawala agad ang galit ko sayo, I thought ganun din ang epekto ko sayo pero di pala

"I just want you to rest babe" sambit mo nung marealize mo na di ako sasagot

"I know. I'm sorry" I gave up, I always gave up everytime we fight, kahit wala naman talaga akong kasalanan, I usually end up saying sorry for being mad at you pero ikaw? Did you tell me you were sorry for not talking to me the whole day because you were damn mad about something that was so petty?

No Raf kase para sayo, ikaw ang laging tama. Kase para sayo wala lang naman talaga ako

After the talk I slept it off just like you have told me to

-Amber