Dear You #Wattys2016

Twelfth Letter

12th Letter:

Dear You,

Naalala ko dati how you tried to win the heart of my brother and for that gusto kong magpasalamat sayo kase kahit putanginang gago ka, you did things to please my family. Naalala ko na sinabihan kita dati that my brother said that kung may gustong manligaw sa akin, dapat dumaan muna sa kanya, dapat makipaglaro muna sa kanya ng Dota. Oh diba? Ganda ng rules ng kapatid ko.

And you did Raf. You played Dota with him

Naalala ko na nag text ka sa akin na nag text ka sa kapatid ko na maglalaro kayo ng Dota, and you know what? Before you even texted that, I already knew

Paano?

Because I was with my brother. Yes Raf, di mo alam ano?

Because I chose not to tell you, I don't want to hurt your feelings, I don't want you to know that my brother didn't want to play with you at first, wala lang. Di lang niya feel nung time na iyon but I told him to play with you kase baka mag tampo ka. Kase minsanan ka lang nag iinvite sa kanya ng laro

I even gave him money to play sa internet cafe. Why did I chose to tell you now?

Because damn you, damn you jerk

After all the things I've done for you, wala lang ako para sayo

And now? Wala narin akong pakealam kung anong mararamdaman mo after reading this letter

My brother did his best to play with you, sayang lang kase nung time na yon, sira yung malapit na internet cafe kaya di kayo nakapag laro

The next day you invited him to play again, syempre agad na pumayag na ang kapatid ko

See that Raf? He wanted to accept you, you are just too dumb to notice that

Tinext mo agad ako na naglalaro kayo ng dota ng kapatid ko, at that time, di na kami magkasama ng kapatid ko.

I texted my brother to ask him if it's true and he said it was true. He said that you were playing with him

Sobra akong natutuwa nung time na iyon Raf kase you did that for me or that's what I thought

Kase nakisama ka sa kapatid ko, kase nakaipagaro ka sa kapatid ko

I was damn happy at that time Rafael, di matanggal ang ngiti ko habang nakasakay ako sa jeep non

I didn't disturb you na kase alam kong naglalaro ka, I want you to focus in your game kase alam ko kung paano magalit kayong mga lalake basta iniestorbo sila sa laro nila

But again Raf, binalewala mo naman ang ginawa ko para sayo

Ang akala mo wala akong pakealam sayo, akala mo di kita iniintindi but you were wrong, you were damn wrong

Kase putangina ka! Kahit ngayon Raf, hanggang ngayon may pakealam parin ako sayo

And I hate myself for feeling this way

-Amber