Dear You #Wattys2016

Second Letter

2nd letter

Dear You,

Siguro by now, alam mo na kung what are the letters all about. Yes, it's about us Rafael. Our story. How we met, How we fell in love and everything else

Sinimulan ko ang sulat na to thinking that by writing all of these letters matauhan narin ako, malaman ko rin kung ano nga ba talaga ang naging takbo ng relasyon natin Rafael but I guess, it's also I want to throw them all out to you. I want to throw all those memories to you Rafael. Yes, I want you to regret everything.

But maybe this is for the best right? Na naghiwalay tayo, pero bakit nga ba talaga Rafael?

I don't get myself that day, nung gabing nagkita tayo, I couldn't get you off my mind. I was smiling Rafael. I was smiling so wide in my sleep. Matagal tagal narin akong nakaramdam ng ganung saya and that night, I was so damn happy because of you Rafael

And there I was back in the mall, di ko alam pero I was still hoping, hoping that I could see you. When I got to dance cental booth, you weren't there. Rafael, grabe, ano nga ba talaga ang magic mo?

Sounds familiar? Yup, you told me that, you told me that day, those exact same words

I was quite disappointed ng di kita nakita. I was about to leave when I ran over you.

Tadhana nga naman, at that time, it was all butterflies in my stomack, fireflies in my eyes, the beating of the heart, yun yon eh. I never imagined I would hate destiny this much

"Aray. Will you--" you were about to scold me ng napansin mong ako pala yung kausap mo

"Hey, it's you. The fiesty girl from yesterday. You're back" You said, looking straight to my eyes. Damn that chinito eyes of yours. It's one of your charms, that now I find so despiteful

"Bakit? Di pwede?" nakataas kilay kong sambit sayo nun, syempre dapat pa hard to get ako diba? Damn Rafael, you were right, I was back there, I was back to see you. I was back to see the danger that I didn't saw coming. Hindi ko naman pala alam that I was actually planting a bomb on my own

"Dance central again?" you asked with your smirking and that handsome hand gesture of yours that you put it in your pockets.

"Heh, why? You want a match again?" paghahamon ko sayo and yes there it was Rafael. Nahulog ka sa bitag ko? Oh ako ba yung nahulog?

We were on an endless match again, trying to boost our egos. Masyadong tayong competitive, it's one of the things we share the same, it's one of the things that made us grew apart

"Wow! Ano ba talagang magic meron ka?" You said smiling at panting while looking at me afther the last match. Nakakunot akong nakatingin sayo but you were still smiling, di ko alam what you meant that time. I was just too tired to process it

"Anong sinasabi mo" I replied, but you just gave me a smile and said

"Wala. Nevermind. Want to eat dinner with me?" I should have said no Raf. It was already 7pm, I need to get back home, I need to go home kase may lakad pa kami ng mga roommates ko. I should have made excuses, I shouldn't have come back to that booth

But then I said yes. I wanted to eat dinner with you. I wanted to be with you.

"So, what's your name?" tanong mo sa akin habang nag oorder tayo ng pizza, we were on Shakeys

"Secret" sambit ko habang nakatingin lang sa menu. I was damn nervous at it, syempre first time kong makipag dinner sa kakakilala ko lang na lalake, much more dahil lalake pa

"Oh come on, Just a name. Hindi naman kita papatayin. Don't worry" sambit niya and damn me for looking at you

"Ikaw muna, ano bang pangalan mo?" tanong ko naman sayo habang nakikipagtitigan ako sa mga chinito eyes mo

"Rafael John Madrigal. You?" buong tapang mong sinabe sa akin, you weren't scared cause you know I wasn't a killer.

"Wow, did you just tell me your full name? Di ka ba nagaalala baka parte ako ng sindikato?" I asked you and you laughed

"Hindi, tsaka sure ka ba na real name ko yan?" tanong mo naman sa akin and you were right, how was I supposed to know that it was your real name, paano ko malalaman kung di ba ikaw mismo ang parte ng sindikato, baka killer ka pa, how was I supposed to know Raf

How was I supposed to know?

But yes, I can't right?

But I trust you . I trust you so much Rafael. Kahit we were totally strangers from each other but I chose to trust you

How was I supposed to know na di ka dapat pagkatiwalaan kung di ko susubukan diba?

"I trust you" buong tapang kong sambit sayo, you were a bit shocked, I knew it. But you smiled back para di obvious, but too late Rafael, I saw you, I saw one of the real side of yours

"Well then, Hi Rafael, I'm Amber. Amber Shane Aguilar"

and that's how you got my name, that's how we get to introduced each other

and the next step? Syempre, your digits.

After we ate our dinner, hinatid mo ako sa sakayan. I told you not to bother since mas kabisado ko ang lugar. Yup, that night I knew you were here on a vacation. Na taga Manila ka talaga, like the City and you were just here in Pampanga for vacation and that you are staying in a hotel with your mother. I asked you pa nga kung bakit di mo kasama mother mo and instead you were just wasting your vacation in a Dance Central booth

"Ah, she's busy with her work. May inaasikaso kase siya dito sa Pampanga" you were smiling pero parang ang lungkot mo, di ko alam bakit nasaktan din ako nung mga oras na iyon

I shouldn't have said that, I shouldn't. But damn my stupid mouth

"Hays, kung ganon. I'll help you with the tour" I said while not looking at you, I didn't have the courage

"Ha?" nagtataka kang nagtanong sa akin

"I said, sayang naman ang pagpunta mo dito kung magmumokmok ka lang sa Mall. You should have a proper look at the place! And I will help you with that" and I looked at you now and it was one of the great thing I did that night

I saw it, I saw your eyes sparkled and smiled at me

Everything went blurry and fuzzy at nag slow motion pa lahat, it was like the perfect moment. The perfect moment that we would locked our eyes. Parang na glue na ang mga mata natin sa isa't isa and for the second time Rafael, you told me

"Ano ba talagang magic ang meron ka Amber and you are making me feel this way" and this time, I get it. I get it Raf but I chose not to

"Ano? Baliw ka na talaga. I don't get what you are saying" naiiling kong sambit at nagiwas na ako ng tingin at baka mamatay pa ako sa kilig

"Sabi ko thank you" sambit niya and we just both smiled

I was about to ride a jeepney pauwe na ng tinawag mo ang pangalan ko

"Amber!" you called me, ang ganda naman pakinggan ng panagalan ko sa tuwing ikaw ang bumabanggit

"Ano?" I was a bit shocked and nervous

"May nakalimutan ka ata" you said and I was confused

"Number mo. How can you tour me when I don't even know your number?" You finally said when you get the gist na wala talaga akong maintindihan

and that's how we exhanged numbers Rafael and that's how I chose again to let you break my heart

-Amber