Dear You #Wattys2016

Twentieth Letter

20th letter

Dear You,

If you were possessive then I was territorial

Di mo lang alam Raf but I want you for myself only

Kung may pinagseselosan ka rin, meron din ako but I didn't mention any of it, well isang beses o dalawang beses lang guro, depende eh

But there was this particular friend na kinakaselosan ko, I guess it was because I caught her tweets to you

"Sige na John, alam ko namang di mo ako matitiis eh" she tweeted to you, she was asking you for chocolates

Ang nakakainis kase eh, bakit sayo siya manghihingi? Did she know that you already have a girlfriend? Baka naman hindi kaya ganun nalangn siya makahingi sayo

Mas lumala pa yon when one of your closest friends na naging kaibigan ko narin replied to her

@JohnMadrigal @VictoriaW Oo nga eh, paborito ka kase niyan eh

Oh diba? Di mo daw matitiis yong Victoria na yon and according to Xandra that she was your favorite

Paano naman ako di mag seselos?

Me:

Babe, wala ka ba talaga naging crush sa mga kaibigan mong babae?

Baby:

Wala naman babe, bakit ba? Tsaka ang papangit nila noh

Me:

Talaga? Kahit si Victoria?

Baby:

Di noh, wala talaga babe promise

Me:

Ahh, bakit sinabe na di mo daw siya matitiis? I saw her tweet for you

Baby:

Ay nako wag kang maniwala don babe, inaasar lang ako nun

Me:

Talaga lang ah?

Baby:

Asees, selos agad ang baby ko. Cute cute talaga ng babe ko pag nagseselos

That's what you always say when I get jealous pero bakit pag ex mo ang pinagseselosan ko, di naman ganyan ang litanya mo

You always get angry when I talk about your ex

Yup, I always get jealous towards Victoria kase lage mo siyang na memention kase sobrang close kayo pero iba, iba ang selos ko pagdating sa ex mo

Your ex is my weakness, I'm insecure

When I get jealous of her, lage kang nagagalit kase di naman ako dapat magselos ayon sayo

But you can't blame me Raf, lalo na nung nalaman ko ang history ninyo but I don't want to talk about it yet

May susunod na letters pa naman

But what I want to say is, yes, sometimes maybe nakakainis na ang pagseselos ko sayo, pero kase Raf, di mo matatanggal sa akin yon, ang layo layo natin, we don't know that much about each other kase sandali lang naman tayo nagkasama

Iba parin pag nagsasama personally and not just emotionally

Ikaw nga nagseselos ka, ako pa kaya

I just want an assurance from you Raf and yes sometimes you assure me pero bakit parang natatameme ka pag ex mo na, bakit parang ibang iba pag sa ex mo na ako nagseselos?

Tsaka sa dami dami mong ka close na babae, di mo lang alam pero lage akong nagseselos

Pag namemention mong magsasama kayo ni Victoria, well kasama niyo naman other friends niyo pero di ko maiwasang magselos sa kanya, lalo na kase alam kong spoiled sayo si Victoria

Lalo na alam kong lage mong binibigyan siya ng chocolates

Paano naman ako Raf? Oo nga malayo tayo, kailangan mo pang ipadala, pero di ko naman sinabeng mahal ang ipapadala mo eh, kahit simpleng sulat lang o isang chocolate, magiging masaya ako Raf

Kase diba sabi mo, liligawan mo ako ng tama kahit tayo na?

I assumed, I expected

Pero nagkahiwalay nalang tayo, wala parin akong effort na nakita sayo

You are only good at your words but never in your actions

"Never trust the words, trust the actions"

I've always put that in my mind pero sayo, na balewala ko lahat

Lahat ng inhibitions ko, nawala

Lahat ng rules ko, nabalewala ko

Lahat ng pinapanindigan ko, nagiba

It fell, it all crumble

Just like how my heart crumble when everything ended

-Amber