Poems and Thoughts (Book 2) {HIATUS}

Empathy

I'm not good at feeling what others feel. I never have been. I'm not good at showing emotion when people tell me their problems. I'm not good at empathy

My family always gets mad at me, because I'm bad at showing empathy. I'm bad at understanding how people feel. I'm not good at connecting with emotions of other people.

I know the definition of empathy. I've looked it up so many time that I have it memorized. I know I should feel empathy towards other people, but I don't. I never really have. People always get mad at me for something I don't understand. 

I'm looking back on some situations and realizing that not showing empathy is the reason why that person was mad at me. 

I had a conversation with this boy. He was getting so angry at me, and I was getting really upset, because I didn't know why he was mad at me. He said I wasn't listening to him and I didn't care, but I was listening. I did care. I wasn't showing it though, because until a few weeks ago I didn't realize my difficulty with showing empathy. This conversation happened months ago. 

The only bad part about not being able to show empathy is it's a sociopath tendency. Most sociopaths can't feel empathy towards others. 

Sociopath- a person with a personality disorder manifesting itself in extreme antisocial attitudes and behavior 

 Empathy- the ability to understand and share the feelings of another.  

Those are the definitions. I'm truly a nice person. I care about others. I care when people are upset. I just don't know how to show it. So please don't get mad at me if we are in a situation like this. I always care. I'm always listening. I just can't show it. I don't know how.