Poems and Thoughts (Book 2) {HIATUS}

Proof That Things Get Better

Right now at this point in my life I'm feeling really good. It has been a really great new year, and these past few months have been amazing. I haven't felt too stressed over anything, or scared about a lot. I've just kind of been at that point where nothing is going bad right now. 

I have straight A's for the first time all year, my two highest classes are geometry and science (which are normally my worst), I started trumpet lessons on Wednesday because my director thinks I'm good and he said he would like me to get to my full potential, and I have just been all around happy. 

I think it's amazing to go back earlier in this book and in the first book and see how sad I am, and thinking about my life now it just shows what difference a couple of years can make. I was so sad in 2013- early 2015, and now? Now I'm just happy to be alive, and I'm enjoying life. 

In seventh grade I remember being at my lowest point, and then eighth hit, and I started digging my way out of my funk, but falling back into it a lot. I'm a freshman in high school now, and I'm so happy with myself and my life. 

I'm living proof that things get better. Two years ago I was cutting, crying every night, and just wanted everything to end. One year ago I was sad about myself and the way I looked. Now? Now I'm starting to feel better about my appearance and how my body looks. I'm starting to feel comfortable in my skin, and in my environment. I'm starting not to care what people think of me. I'm getting more confident in myself. 

If you needed proof that people can get out of depression, take this is proof, because I'm proof. I regret everything I did, and now realize it was only hurting me. It wasn't a solution to the problem. I just thought it was. I thought it was, because for a split second it took the pain away. Now I realize what I did wasn't right, and all I really needed was help, and love. Then I talked to my friends about how I was feeling, and I slowly got myself out of the depression. 

So I'm here if any of you need to talk, and get yourself out. I'll always be here. IT GETS BETTER