why do i always feel like im doing everything wrong?

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why do i always feel like im doing everything wrong?
like im sitting in the middle of a bright room
feeling so left out
so in the dark

its like I'm always wanting to set a high standard for myself
but i never want to reach it
in fear of what will happen when i do
what will be waiting for me at the top

i feel like I'm always playing it too safe
but still I'm doing it all wrong
i know I'm doing it right
but even then i doubt myself

it feels like I'm swimming through a swimming pool of acid
my flesh is burning
but i still continue to go
i continue to swim

i push myself until i break
i break down into tears
i cry, and cry, and cry
and nobody knows

i sit in my room wishing i were dead
going over every mistake
everything ive ever done wrong
and i wish i were dead

that's the problem with doing everything wrong
it gets you down
pulls you straight to the ground
because i do everything wrong

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