Poems and Thoughts (Book 2) {HIATUS}

I hate family

  So we had a closing from school today. My mom told me not to spend all day in my room. I told her okay and then at 4 I went back up to go to the bathroom. My mom told me to take the dogs out so I did. Now, my dad always says wait until they stop barking to let them out, and everybody in my family knows that. 
   A little thing about me is I don't like to be yelled at. I'm a very sensitive person and yelling just sets me off. I cry when somebody does it. So while I was waiting my brother yelled "Dude just take them out already!" 
   And here I am, shocked and my day was just ruined. Everybody in my family knows not to yell at me, but he did. So I took the dogs out and went downstairs to my bedroom in a horrible mood. I was so content in my room alone and then I go upstairs to family.
    They always wonder why I stay in my room on my laptop and electronics or reading. Its because when I'm alone, nobody can hurt me. I'm in a neutral mood, I'm not scared, I'm not sad, I'm not anything. I'm content. I like to be on the internet talking to people or writing because it makes me feel like I'm not utterly alone. I don't feel like I'm a burden. (except with one person on kik but whatever..... he doesn't want to talk to me anyhow....) 
   When I'm on the internet everybody is so nice. Nobody has hurt my feelings on the internet yet. My feelings are hurt everyday by my own fucking family. They tell me to socialize, i get criticized by them, then I go back in my room and read or get on the internet. I could be dead for all they know down here and they wouldn't notice or care. Fuck socializing. And they wonder why I'm an antisocial cry baby. Its because of them!