Do you know how hard it is to feel broken everyday, but still smile at everyone? Still make everybody happy? Still act normal? Do you know how it feels to be the one people see as unbreakable and inside your heart is shattered? Do you know how it feels to bite down on your trembling lip and looking up to the sky so you wont cry? Well it fucking hurts. God it hurts like hell. I cant feel my numb heart anymore and I'm just going through the days.
This is not living, this is just existing. I feel like I'm just kind of.... there. I'm not important, I'm not popular, I'm not a loser, I'm not inspirational, I'm not doing anything, I'm just.... there. I'm a waste of space. There is nothing that i do in the world that makes anybody happy and my life could be so much better if somebody else were living it. I have nothing to offer. I'm just, apart of the background.
Why do I feel like this? I have people who care and people who love me. My head is just a whirlwind of thoughts that i cannot comprehend. I cant feel anything, I'm completely numb. I feel as if I'm looking at the world through iced glass, and Its never ending. It hurts, god it hurts so badly.
My heart has been thrown, smashed, broken and beaten. Its been stabbed, used, played, and shattered. I want to feel happy for more than 30 minutes a day!! Is that too much to ask? Whats wrong with me? Whats wrong with me?? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!
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Poems and Thoughts (Book 2) {HIATUS}
PoetryJust some poems about how I'm feeling at any given point of the day. Mostly depressing stuff. This used to be "Here's Some Inspiration," but I made that an entirely different story on my page, so if you are looking for more inspirational happy writi...
