Just Wanna Be With You (Sequel to YATMIM)

The Boy Who Meant Everything...

~ Kellins POV ~

"Do you have any idea how much you mean to me?" She asked me over skype once as I did my homework.
I stopped what I was doing to look at her and smile "Not really."
She giggled "Well, you mean absolutely everything, and I think you always will. You're my everything, you're the better half of me, and being here without you feels just wrong! I miss you more than I've ever missed anyone before in my life! I love you, more than can be expressed through words, you're my world, and I wouldnt trade a single hair on your perfect head for the rest of the universe."
I felt tears prick my eyes "You have no idea how much I want to kiss you right now."
She laughed "You shall just have to make up for it next time we see eachother!"
I nodded "Oh dont you worry babygirl, I will." I winked at her and she blushed, burying her face in her bedsheets adorably.

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I pressed the video and was greeted by Heather once again, but this time she wasnt smiling anywhere near as brightly as before. "Hey there guys, it's Trash here." She sighs "A lot of you have been asking about...something, and you're all asking the exact same questions, so I figured in this video I would answer them. For any of you that are confused, here is what Im talking about." Some clips of other videos she's done start playing. She's sitting on the floor in this clip, laughing "That reminded me so much of what we..." Her face fell and she looked unbelievably sad, she shook her head "No, no, nevermind, it's nothing." Then another clip starts playing, a reaction video, where her fans send her links in tweets and she has to watch whatever they send her. Someone sent her the link to the song Smother Me, the exact song I sang to her as an apology all those years ago. As soon as she hears the first few words of the song, her eyes fill with tears "He sang...Im sorry, I cant do this, it's too painful." The next clip was of her reacting again, but this time someone sent her the link to my bands song: Alone. The second my face pops up on the screen, she closes her eyes in a pained blink and as my hand touches the camera, she places hers on her screen and I see a small tear roll down her face. Then its back to the current video, Heather sighs "Yeah, as you can imagine there are many people wondering what in the fuck is going on. So, today Im going to tell you the story of The Boy Who Meant Everything to me. It all started when I was 13 years old. I know I said I dont remember most of what happened from before I turned 15, but I do, I remember it all, I just deny it because I dont WANT to remember any of it. My life was alright back then I guess, but then this boy transferred to my school from America...wait, I still have the old video! Let me just play that instead!" Then the old video she made starts playing. The one she made before she tried to commit suicide, because of me. I shake my head frantically and skip the video, unable to sit through it all, knowing I will cry. "As you can see, what I tell you now is 100% accurate. You heard, his name was Kellin, and yes, that boy running around for a few seconds in the short clip I showed was Kellin Quinn as a kid, yes, him and I dated, for 3 years. Unfortunately, he moved back to America due to...family issues. Anyway, I visited him as often as possible, even surprising him on his birthday, but during our last year of high school...the biggest surprise I would ever encounter occurred. On our first day of year 11, I strolled into school as normal, and saw him, leaning against the pool building, where I always used to wait...he was just standing there, waiting for me, smiling..." I notice her eyes are slowly filling with tears "He moved in with his sister, b-because she moved near me with her boyfriend, and Kellin persuaded her to take him too, so that he could b-be with me. That year was the best year of my life, by far, and I still hold fond memories of it all, but all good things come to an end. After we'd both left school, his friend Jesse called him and told him he'd found some guys that wanted to form a band...Kellin was ecstatic, I remember him jumping around my house with the phone pressed to his ear...but then the catch came, he had to go back to America, and I couldnt go with him b-because I was pursuing my dream. S-So he told me, and I decided to be as selfless as possible. Over the course of the next f-few weeks, I-I barely called him, barely texted him, and when we were together we barely spoke, I-I forced us to drift apart, and a week before he had to l-leave, I ended things with him, t-told him he'd be better off without me. He understood, I think it was a relief to him, because I'd been the definition of a bitch for the past few weeks. I-I didnt want him to leave me, I-I just wanted him to be happy, and I kn-knew that being in a band was his dream, I-I didnt want him to have a reason to deny his dreams, s-so I sacrificed my own happiness for his, and to this day he st-still d-doesnt know." She was literally sobbing now, my heart was breaking, she did all of that for me!?! "Our relationship w-was perfect, and it affects my day-to-day life even now, I get caught up in it all. I have what I call 'K days' which stands for Kellin days, it's a day in which I've remembered something about mine and Kellins relationship, and it has made me miss him even more. S-Seeing his face in music videos, h-hearing the songs he used to sing to me, hearing words that h-he had said to me first...it all brings me to tears, which is why in some q&a's I wont answer certain questions. I dont care if you dont believe any of this, it's all true, and here are some pictures of Kellin and I as kids to prove it." She choked on a cry before a slideshow of images began. Some were screenshots she'd taken of our skype calls, some were selfies, some were pictures of the captured moments in which one of us surprised the other, the last picture to come on the screen was the one of us at the fair, where I surprised her by kissing her cheek. "S-So yeah...he's probably completely forgotten about me by now, and I miss him. I know it's stupid to think I had found the one as a 13 year old, but I swear, I really fucking did, why else would I still cry over our breakup 11 years later!?! I feel so stupid. I wish he knew all of this, all of the sacrifices I made for him. I still love him more than life itself. Im not gonna do my outro for this video, because my outro is a happy thing, and I want it to always be a happy thing, so rather than ruining that by crying during my outro, I'll simply end this on a short clip of a skype call Kellin and I once had." Tears are streaming from my eyes when the video of us skyping starts playing, it's her lying in bed, smiling at me, with my short blonde hair, this was just after she'd returned to England from surprising me on my birthday.
"I love you." She whispered over skype.
I smiled at her "I love you too, now get some sleep babygirl."
"Can you singggg for meeeee?" She begged.
I laughed in the video "Of course I can baby! Any requests?"
She was thoughtful for a moment "Uh...you choose!"
I smiled "Alright!" I cleared my throat "Let me be the one who calls you baby, all the time."
I pause the video and burst into tears. She fucking remembers it, all of it! She's been having flash backs just like I have! I clutch one of the couch pillows and cry into it, I cant believe she remembers me, and still misses me as much as I miss her!