~ Heathers POV ~
Just as my fingernails were beginning to graze my skin, my phone beeps obnoxiously. I sniffle and raise an eyebrow, grabbing it from the coffee table and unlocking it without even reading the notification. Im instantly sent to my twitter dm's. Huh!?! Oh. Fuck me.
Kellin: Hey, long time no see! How are you? Are you ok? Did you enjoy the show? I have so many questions, so much to tell you, but I dont know when or how to tell you, when the time will seem right...Im stupid, Im sorry 😂❤️
How and why would he message me asking if Im ok while in the middle of self harming!?! I always used to wonder the same thing when we were kids, because this would happen a lot. Sometimes I thought maybe he was watching over me somehow, like a guardian angel. I mean, he already was my guardian angel, even without that theory, but you get the point. My hands are shaking too much for me to type a response, both because of the shock of him messaging me and the fact that I was self harming moments ago. It will show up on his phone that I've read his message and not responded, but I need to compose myself. With one final, stretched out sniffle, I pull myself together and wipe away my own tears, because the difference me now and me 11 years ago is back then I relied on Kellin to pick me up, but since he left I have had to learn to pick myself up. I drag myself to the bathroom and take a shower, which lasts for about an hour because I was enjoying the feeling individual water droplets bouncing off my skin.
Contemplating the meaning of life is something I do whenever I step out of the shower, because there is a very high chance that I will slip and fall to my death, and I might as well be thinking about something philosophical so that, if people somehow figure out what I was thinking, I seem deep, emo and relatable. I wrap a towel around myself and practically to my bedroom, dressing myself in a pair of black skinny jeans that are ripped at the knee, a plain white vest with a black leather jacket over the top. I blow dry my hair and brush it briefly, before deciding to pack my bags for England. After all, if I dont do it now, I wont end up doing it until the day before Im scheduled to leave, because Im an award winning procrastinator. I mean there's only a day left before I do actually got there, but for me this is still packing early. Shut up.
After managing to squeeze all of the prioritized shit that I have to take to England (e.g. hoodies, skinny jeans, cookies and childrens bubblebath soap, because mother fucking bubbles) I get a text from my wifoo!
Wifoo: The weirdest fucking shit just happened 😱
Me: Dont tell me, you discovered another kpop band you're obsessed with!?! 😂
Wifoo: Yes! But no, Im not talking about that. 😉
Me: Damn son, what ARE you talking about then!?! 🤔
Wifoo: The fact that Kellin just texted me. 😏
Me: You're fucking with me right 😗
Wifoo: Nope! He told me he didnt know if I would even get the message, cuz he's sure I would've changed my phone and number since we last spoke. 😌
Me: OML I REMEMBER YOU DIDNT CHANGE YOUR PHONE CUZ IT WAS TOO PAINFUL FOR YOU TO REMOVE YOUR SIM WITH ALL YOUR PHOTOS OF KOREANS ON IT EVEN THO YOU STILL COULD'VE KEPT THEM ON A NEW PHONE BUT YOU SAID YOU COULDNT PART WITH THEM FOR MORE THAN A SECOND OMF IM CRAFTING WHAT DID HE SAY 😱😱😱😭😭😭
Wifoo: IKR!?! He basically asked if I was doing ok, then he started asking if you were ok and if anything happened to you and why you havent replied to his dm on twitter yet. 🤔
Me: OH SHITTY BALLS I COMPLETELY FORGOT AND I WAS PROCRASTINATING AND I HAD A SHOWER AND I PACKED MY BAGS FOR ENGLAND AND IM SO SORRY FUCK ME I 😱😰
Wifoo: Omg wifoo I swear. I'll tell him that then, you go message him! 😂👍🏻
Me: Brb gonna throw myself into the sun 🙈
Wifoo: Why tho? 😂
Me: Because right as I went to twitter Dear Future Husband started playing. 😕
Wifoo: OML EVEN SPOTIFY SHIPS HELLIN FUCK 😱😱😱😂😂😂👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻
Me: ...🌚
Wifoo: Oh ffs. GO MESSAGE HIM!!! 😂👌🏻
Me: riGHT YES OF COURSE SORRY I 😱
Wifoo: FUCKING GO!!! 👋🏻😂
I then go to twitter and start hyperventilating as I read his message over and over again. I cant help but smile slightly, he cares enough to ask that stuff, that means so much to me. Before I start to procrastinate anymore, I type out my reply.
YOU ARE READING
Just Wanna Be With You (Sequel to YATMIM)
FanfictionAn eventful past is shared between them, but they havent seen or heard from eachother in years. Why? What happened? Where did everything go wrong? Well, lets just say that both Heather and Kellin are as confused as you are right now. ~ COMPLETED ~
