Just Wanna Be With You (Sequel to YATMIM)

So Much Smiling...

~ Kellins POV ~

I was beyond excited when Heather sent me her reply and said she'd love to go on a date tonight, but now Im worried too. What if I've changed too much for her!?! What if I havent changed enough!?! What if Im stuck in the past, too far back to be brought back into the present!?! Oh god, if I lose her now...I cant, I cant fucking lose her, not again, she means too much to me.

I go out with Justin and buy a suit and tie for tonight, knowing Heather will be wearing a pretty dress. Just picturing her dressing up for me brings a smile to my lips. I wish she knew. She'll never understand how much she affects me. I feel like if she did, it would scare her away, because even I am scared by my constant ache for her. I want to be able to call her mine, more than anything.

After buying the suit and checking it fits, Heather and I arrange the time at which I'll pick her up. I reserve a table in her favorite restaurant, where we had our first proper date. It was after the Christmas disco, but before I moved back to America, it was during the Christmas holidays, I took her there after I'd seen her rant about that place so many times, and she was so happy, the smile on her face...god, that smile. Come to think of it, the smile I saw that night was one she would give me so often, I took it for granted, but now Im thinking about it...she hasnt smiled at me that way since we reunited. Something is wrong, something is very very wrong. I'll ask her tonight, though Im sure she'll lie as she always has and say she's perfectly fine.

I go to hers and Hannahs hotel room, knocking on the door nervously and straightening out my suit. I hear squealing and giggling from inside, and I smile, thats her, my angel. The door opens, and I smile at Hannah, she sighs.
"HEATHER C'MON YOU LOOK FINE!!!" She hollers before turning to me and rolling her eyes "She's convinced herself that-"
"I HAVE NOT EVER AND WILL NOT EVER SUIT DRESSES OK I WAS BUILT FOR SKINNY JEANS AND ONLY SKINNY JEANS!!!" I hear Heather shout from her bedroom.
I laugh "C'MON HEATHER, PLEASE LET ME SEE!!!"
I hear her sigh, then her door opens. She shuffles in awkwardly, holding her right arm with her left hand self consciously. She got her hair cut today, more dramatic, shorter layers have been cut in, meaning her hair is lighter, so it goes a lot curlier than before. I love it. Her dress cuts off just below the knee, and is a sparkly, black, long sleeved, very sexy, number. I love that too.
"I knew you'd look beautiful, but god-DAMN!" I whisper, biting my lip as I stare at the gorgeous girl in front of me.
Hannah giggles and runs off, leaving Heather and I alone. She's so nervous, so anxious, so self conscious. I reach her in two strides and lift her chin with my finger, our gazes lock. "You are so beautiful Heather, I mean it."
She blushes and smiles at me "Thank you Kellin."
I grin back at her and drop my hand "Anytime! So, are you ready?"
Heathers smile widens as she nods "Yeah, are you?"
I wink at her "Baby, please, I was BORN ready!" I hold my hand out for her.
Heather laughs and shakes her head as she takes my hand, the contact instantly sending shivers up my arm. I love her so much. I wish she knew.

She had the exact same reaction to the restaurant as she did when we were kids. She looked so fucking beautiful. I used all my strength not to kiss every inch of her gorgeous face. I just want to kiss her again. I just want to hear her tell me that she loves me too. God, if I ever hear her say those words to me again...I dont know what I'll do. The night was perfect, every second of it. We laughed, just as we always have. There was never an awkward silence, just like there never has been before. Neither of us could stop smiling. At one point though, Heather left to go to the bathroom, and when I saw her exit...to say my heart dropped to the floor would be an understatement. I had the sick feeling in my stomach from the moment she got up from the table, but when I saw her return, my suspicions were confirmed: she had been crying. I got up and ran to meet her before she'd even glanced at our table. I wrapped my arms around her and told her that no matter what was bothering her, no matter what the cause for her tears was, no matter whether she would tell me or not, I would be here, to hold her, to keep her safe. She held onto me so tight, it made me feel so loved, so strong, so perfect. She clutched me, showing me how much she really needed me then, and how my words had helped her. The rest of the night, I held her hand across the table, and whenever I thought she was going to start crying again, I would shuffle round in our little booth and wrap my arms around her, expressing my love for her without actually saying the exact words.

Strolling back to my car, her hand being held tightly by mine, I couldnt shake the feeling of flying. I'd never felt so alive, not in a very long time, and it was all because of her. She made me feel so young again, so important, so loved, and I tried my hardest to return the favor. I dropped her back off at hers and Hannahs hotel, walking her to her door because Im a gentleman, and when we got to the door I wrapped my arms around her waist, she instinctively wrapped hers around my neck. We both knew what was coming, and neither of us could stop smiling at the other. Rather than waiting for me to make the first move, she locked her fingers in my hair, taking control, and pushed my lips into hers, I obviously wasnt complaining. I pulled her as close as I could get her, and forced her up against the door. Memories flashed before my eyes, memories of our life before this moment, the pain we both went through. Whats strange is, its like I can feel HEATHERS pain too, not just my own, like she is showing me, through our kiss, just so how much she has hurt over me. I kiss her harder, trying to show her that Im here now, and I wont let her again. Our lips are saying all we need them to say, we dont even have to talk. Our bond is stronger than I thought.
Heather pulls away first and kisses me once more, before whispering "Tonight has been perfect, thank you so much, I'll see you tomorrow."
I grin at her "It has been perfect, it was my pleasure, and I cant wait."
She giggles "Bye for now, thanks again!"
I struggle to unclasp my arms from her waist "Ok, anytime." We pull away from each other, she unlocks her door and almost falls into her hotel room, causing me to laugh. I begin the walk to my hotel, my smile never leaving my face. Im falling more for her everyday.