Just Wanna Be With You (Sequel to YATMIM)

...Is This A Damn Confessional Or

~ Heathers POV ~

Kellin and I started to walk around together, holding hands, just smiling and enjoying each others company.

We sit on a bench, Kellin wraps his arm around me nervously, I giggle and snuggle into him. "Why're you so nervous now?"
Kellin sighs "You're officially my girlfriend, I cant risk fucking anything up!"
I shake my head "You wont fuck anything up, trust me! If anyone's gonna fuck up this relationship, it'll be me!"
"How could you ever fuck up our relationship when Im so fucking in love with you that you could literally murder someone and I'd help you hide the body!?!" Kellin asks humorously.
I laugh slightly before shaking my head "Remember I said that I realised the truth, and thats why I came back to you?"
Kellin nods "Yeah...?"
"Well, the truth is that Im scared. Terrified, actually. Scared of disappointing you, of losing you again, of not being good enough, and most of all: scared that one day you'll wake up and realise you're worth so much more than me." I explain, spilling the truth.
Kellin pulls me onto his lap and holds me there protectively, he caresses my cheek with his fingertips "Really? Thats why you were going to leave? Because you're scared of not being good enough?"
I nod and stare down at my hands, blushing and feeling beyond embarrassed. "Yeah..."
"Heather, baby, you could never not be good enough, especially not for me! You are perfect, absolutely perfect, I dont care if you disagree or see yourself differently, if you saw yourself the way I see you, you'd be the most big headed person in the world! You mean everything to me, and you have no idea how happy I am to finally be able to call you mine and hold you in my arms. You'll never understand the amount I've missed you. Babygirl, Im terrified of losing you, and I am honestly obsessed with you. Im obsessed with how I feel when you're with me, Im obsessed with kissing you, with touching you and being able to feel you here with me. Please, dont ever think you arent good enough, because honestly you are TOO good for me." Kellin confesses.
There are tears in my eyes "Kellin..." I rest my hand against his cheek, staring into his eyes.
"Heather..." He whispers my name as he stares back at me. We both begin to lean in slowly. "Baby, please, Im desperate for you." He whispers, barely audibly. I giggle and pull away from him. Kellin whines "Babyyyyy! Please! I need to feel your lips on mine, your hands in my hair, my arms around your waist, I need you! Please, I've gone so long without your kisses, I fucking crave them constantly!"
"You want to kiss me, do you Kellin?" I wiggle my eyebrows.
Kellin nods frantically "Yeah! Please! Can I? I'll do anything!"
"Would you do me?" I ask.
He processes this for a moment before he realises what Im suggesting, then his eyes widen and he nods furiously "YES! DEFINITELY! But not until you're ready. I dont want to rush you."
I giggle and shake my head, blushing like mad. I smile at him as our gazes lock once again "My idiot." I state as I admire him.
Kellin smiles back at me "My babygirl."
He's losing himself as he stares into my eyes, I can see it, he has no idea whats going on in the outside world anymore. I take my chance to surprise him, and smash my mouth to his. Kellin gasps and moans instantly, so surprised he had no time to prepare himself or hold back his moans. Im amazed that my kisses affect him so much. I run my fingers through his hair and tug on some strands lightly, causing him to almost growl against my lips.
I pull away from him, but for almost a minute Im unable to speak as Kellin kisses me repeatedly, and I catch my breath. "Satisfied?" I ask, smiling at him.
"By you? Always." He grins at me.
I roll my eyes "You're almost as cheesy as me. ALMOST."
Kellin winks "I learnt from the best!"
I giggle and snuggle into his hoodie. "I missed you so much Kels."
He sighs in content "I missed you too Heather, so much." Kellin holds me on his lap protectively "I'll never let anything or anyone hurt you. I'll never let anything or anyone take you away from me. I'll stand up for and by you whenever you need me. I'll forever be by your side. I'll defend you, always. I'll fight to the death for you. I'll hold you and never let you go. I'll kiss you, compliment you and tell you I love you in front of all my friends. I'll show you off and forever boast to everyone about you. Im so in love with you."
I smile into his hoodie "I'll never let anyone or anything hurt or offend you. I'll fight back whenever someone disses you in my presence, no matter who they are. I'll let you vent to me about anything and everything. I'll let you cry, I wont judge you for it, I'll always comfort you. I'll always be here for you. I'll always need you. I'll always cling to you, no matter what you're doing. I'll show you off to absolutely everyone, and tell everyone how proud I am of you, and how proud I am to be yours. I'll never leave you. I'll follow you to the ends of the Earth. Im so in love with you."
Kellin sniffles "Y-You wont judge me for crying?"
I shake my head "No! Of course I wont! Why would I?"
"I-Its not 'manly' for me to cry, and I want to be a man, for you..." He explains sadly.
I pull away from his chest to stare at him in shock. I see his eyes are slowly filling with tears. "KELLIN QUINN BOSTWICK. Are you SERIOUSLY trying to tell me that you dont think you are manly BECAUSE YOU CRY!?! Hold up, hold up, please hold." I hold a hand up in the air and take a deep breath "Ok. Sorry. Im back. Let me just explain to you what a man is real quick. A real man isnt afraid to show affection towards his lover in front of his friends. A real man isnt afraid to be himself. A real man protects the person he loves, even if he isnt Arnold Schwarzenegger. A real man is not judgemental, homophobic, racist, sexist, transphobic or a menninist. A real man is not afraid to show his emotions. A real man is not grossed out by periods. A real man is not a douchebag. A real man does not cheat. YOU are a real man Kellin! You are the manliest man I have ever met! I should really call you my MANfriend rather than my BOYfriend, but it doesnt really have the same ring to i-"
Suddenly, Kellins lips are on mine. Its not a long, lust filled kiss. It was short, relatable. It was brief. And it was very, very sweet.
"Thank you so much baby." He whispers in my ear "You cant understand how happy it makes me to know that you think of me so highly. I love you."
I smile and kiss him softly "Anytime! I love you too Kels."