Just Wanna Be With You (Sequel to YATMIM)

...The Pain Of Separation

~ Heathers POV ~

I wake up, and instantly feel like shit. Im going to be in a terrible mood today. Im going to be the definition of a bitch, and there's nothing anyone can do about it, not even me. I have so much to think about, so many things to decide. Will I let Kellin save my life, or will I drown? What will happen when him and I reunite? What will it be like to date the lead singer of a band? Will I cope with him being away from me for so long when he tours, and I stay at home? Where is home now!?! Am I going to move in with him, or are we going to buy a new place together, to start a completely new chapter in our lives? When will I tell my sporks that Kellin and I are officially back together? HOW will I tell them? God, so many questions! What the fuck am I supposed to do!?!

I lie in bed for just over an hour, trying to figure out the answers to my questions. By the end of it, I just give up, because even after an hour I havent come up with a single damn answer, so there is no hope whatsoever.

I literally just kicked my legs out of bed and sat up, and Im already done with life. Today's gonna go great.

Hannah and I both greet each other with tired, pissed off grunts, before cooking up some chocolate pop tarts, eating them viciously, and flopping on the sofa. I start flicking through the tv channels, before deciding to watch Kerrang! because it's my best chance of seeing him. My only chance, thanks to the time difference, until he Skype's me later. Hannah arrives on the sofa a few minutes later, with a bowl of freshly cooked chicken dippers, two tubs of Ben And Jerries chocolate fudge ice cream, and the covers from her bed and mine. Oh, so that's what's happening today. Awesome. I guess I need this. Modern day therapy. I nod at her gratefully and start to eat the chicken dippers, then I hear the intro to a song start to play.

" Could you check my pulse for me and see if I'm alive? 'Cause every time that I'm near you's the only time I feel alright. "

I throw the bowl of chicken dippers on the floor, before ripping open one of the tubs of Ben And Jerries and ferociously taking a spoon from my wife, I start to stuff my face with ice cream as I sob loudly.
"There he is! Right fucking there! MY BABY KELLIN! I AM SO PROUD OF HIM! LOOK AT HIM! Oh my god I miss him so much THIS IS NOT OK!" I cry loudly, before I hear a beep and turn to my right. Hannah was fucking recording me. That sneaky nooty mcnoot. I shake my head and turn back to the tv, continuing to sob and eat Ben And Jerries. Hannah joins me in doing so as soon as Justin comes on the screen. Goals as fuck.

After eating Ben And Jerries for several hours, I go onto twitter and start to spam the fuck out.

@ hopelessfangirl: I swear to god Im so depressing like wot even 😂

@ hopelessfangirl: When can I return to America bc I need Kellin hugs plz tank 😔

@ hopelessfangirl: Yo so like when is a good time and day and whatever the fuck for a meet & greet?¿? 😗

@ hopelessfangirl: Im too depressed to re-watch Jacks Undertale series guys. This shit is fucking insane. 😱😭

@ hopelessfangirl: Hey...hey...hey @ kellinquinn ...hmu plz I miss yew child 😘

@ hopelessfangirl: At what point am I allowed to throw myself out of a window and finally meet Michael Jackson in heaven before returning to hell? 🤔

@ hopelessfangirl: I miss Kellin 😞

@ hopelessfangirl: Ugh Im such a desperate hoe lmao 😐😂