Just Wanna Be With You (Sequel to YATMIM)

...Missing You

~ Heathers POV ~

After Kellin got on the plane, I stood at one of the windows and watched him fly away. I fell to the floor, feeling my heart aching, slowing down, and I couldnt breathe. I tried to calm myself down, but I couldnt, nothing would work. Hannah was in the toilet at the time. When she came out and found me, she was beyond worried. She tried to talk to me, ask what was wrong, but I couldnt answer her. I was shaking, I was crying, and I couldnt breathe. I was terrified. Then she got an idea. She took her phone out got a Sleeping With Sirens video up, she passed her phone to me and I just watched. Hannah started recording me, to see if her plan really would work. I started smiling as I watched him sing, running around with his best friends. When the video finished, I looked back out of the airport window and placed my hand on it. Hannah posted the video on my youtube channel when we got home, with a small section of her explaining why I was in the state I was.

Now we're back at the hotel, I have been watching Kellin edits on instagram for the past 3 hours. So far, I have only cried for 2 of them. I shake my head and turn off my phone, before setting up my camera and smiling at it as it records me. "HELL THERE FRENZ! I am aware that I have not been making my daily videos and I am sorry if I worried any of you. Im fine! Im doing great, actually! Kellin went back to America today, so I have been crying almost non-stop, but Im ok. I miss him a fucking lot, obviously, but Im surviving. Anywhore, I figured today I'd react to videos that will make me cry. This wont be a shitty compilation that makes EVERYONE cry though, Im going to search for videos on youtube that made me cry the first time I watched them, and Im gonna see if they still have me traumatized! This will be a list of videos that nobody else has seen in this order before, and Im challenging you guys not to cry too! Alright, first video. Oh fuck. I regret this already." I start playing Welcome To The Black Parade

"I will not. Nope. I am staying stro-WHEN I WAS. A YOUNG BOY. MY FATHER. Im sobbing already wow this is a great start 10/10 brownie points to me fam. Considering I already failed at that one and I dont want to scar my fellow emo's, lets go to the next video." I start playing JackSepticEye's vlog: It Breaks My Heart

,This makes me cry because Jack cries and bless him he is a total sweetheart and I love him and he doesnt deserve to feel so sad and guilty over something he couldnt prevent and I just. OH GOD THE SAD VLOG MUSIC. FUCK. I was not prepare-THE TEARS. LOOK. YOU CAN SEE THE TEARS IN HIS EYES. IM. THIS IS. SHIT. HIS VOICE JUST BROKE DID YOU HEAR THAT. HE IS CRYING. NO. MY LIL BABY. BLESS HIM. DNT CRI JACKABOY. Im failing miserably at this arent I? Fuck me, I knew I was an emotional wreck, but this has really opened my eyes man. I remember the first time I watched this, god, it was YEARS ago..."

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I was sat on my bed, watching Jacks videos from the night before. I was smiling already, because I loved watching Jack. My smile fell when I saw the title "It Breaks My Heart" oh god. This was gonna be an emotional vlog, I knew it. I started watching it, and when I saw the tears in Jacks eyes...I was already sobbing. I got a text, so I paused the video.

Kels: Baby, are you ok? 😧

He always knew when I wasnt ok, even if he wasnt with me. I didnt know how.

Me: Have you seen Jacks vlog from last night?

Kels: The one that he cries in? Yeah, why? 🤔