Twisting Fate

In My Heart

I know I should have done this in the first chapter, sorry. But this is my first story. I am sorry if my story seems similar to someone else's, I assure it is 100% my own. I don't even know if anyone is reading this book but whatever.

I'm sorry for any errors. I write it on my phone, then email it to myself so I can upload on here, I skim through to fix some mistakes, but unfortunately, I'm just too lazy to read it all again.

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Chapter 3

We layed there for a long time. Just looking into each other's eyes. He eventually turned his gaze to my neck. He ran his fingers softly over the spot where my neck and collarbone meet. The place that i should have a mark at now. I was 19 and being one of the few she wolves in our pack, it was dangerous to be left unmarked.

I knew Travis had been thinking about asking me if he could mark me. I could see that he wanted to in his eyes. Especially right now. He closed his eyes after inhaling deeply and held that breath for a moment. He slid down my body so that his head was on my chest just above my breasts. I placed one hand around his back, and the other ontop of his head. I slid my fingers through his hair, rubbing his head in the process. He finally let out the breath he'd been holding. He sounded exhausted.

I chuckled softly. Travis turned his head up to look at my face, clearly wondering what was funny. "Is the big bad wolf tired?" I asked in a light tone. He grinned and shook his head. "No, im just enjoying these lovely pillows." He said as he reached over and grabbed the breast his head wasn't on. I squealed in surprise and slapped his hand away.

"Hey now Mr. Touchy, watch it." He grinned even more, "You like that I'm touchy. You love it when i touch you." He said daringly. I just shook my head at him un-phased by his remark.

Our relationship was complicated to others. But to me, it was just.....us. He had been my first and I his. But we aren't mates. At the time we blew it off as raging wolf hormones. But we both knew better. There were feelings here we couldn't explain in words.

I loved him. More than anything. My wolf should be angry. She should be telling me to stop this nonsense. That i should only act this way and do these things with our mate. But she never did. She loved Travis and his wolf as much as I did. She trusted him with her life, and in return, would lay down her's if it could save him.

She knew Travis would protect us. She also knew that the mate we were given was no good. He was a drunk. Someone who used people and laughed afterwards. But not Travis. Travis was good. Loyal.

She claimed Travis as her's and I did too. However, I was more weary.....Travis still hadn't found his mate. If he did, I would be shattered. Even more so than when I was rejected.

You see, the day Travis found me was also the day my real mate rejected me. He was a rogue who stumbled upon me. He looked disgusted as he laid eyes on me. He didn't want to be tied down to one woman is what he spat at me.

He hit me repeatedly showing me i could never be with a man like him. I was only 16. Jeremy was his name. He was 24. Travis came through the woods and attacked Jeremy. I didnt scream for him to stop like mosts mates might. I didn't even care.

Travis won easily. Even if the guy had 6 years on him, he was no match for Travis. After killing my so called mate Travis turned to me. I stared at him with no emotion. I didn't shed a single tear. I didn't even make a sound while Jeremy was ramming his fist into me.

I had been taught to not show weakness. To not react to pain. To not flinch when a hand was raised at me. My mother saw to that.

Travis had walked over to me with his hands up, his features looked cautious. He was showing me he meant no harm. When he reached me, he had brushed his hand across my cheek. I didnt move. I kept my eyes trained to the fotest behind him.

He tilted his head to the side as if contemplating something. "My name is Travis." He said in a smooth voice. It was like he was trying not to scare me. "What's your name Angel?" My deep blue eyes slid to his. I just stared at him.

"Lazira, he called us beautiful...." I said to my wolf. "That's because we are dear one. He saw past your pain. He sees your beautiful heart." was her simple response. "Can we trust him?" I asked her. "Yes, i think we can."

After a long moment of simply looking at him. He still held my gaze with loving eyes. He waited so patiently. "Avery." I finally said in a low voice. As if i only wanted him to hear. He grinned at me and the sight almost took my breath away.

"That is a beautiful name. It fits you." He said softly. He held his hand to me. "Go with him. I have a feeling about this one." Lazira said to me. She has never steered me wrong. She always protected me. So right then, I took his hand without a second thought. I wanted to get out of here. He was my way out. I didnt care where we went, as long as he was there.

Ever since then, Travis had never left my side. He taught me to defend myself and how to fight. Once i was good enough we became training buddies. We stayed in shape together. Travis took me to places i never knew existed. He taught me that it was ok to trust and smile or even cry.

Eventually, we had begun to have some intense moments. There were feelings between us from day one. Having hormone driven counter parts only fueled our emotions and desire. I'll never forget our first night together. He was so gentle. It was also really awkward. Neither of us had any experience but it was amazing none the less. After that we had some more times like that.

But what stopped me was the nagging feeling that i could lose him at any moment. Travis hadn't found his mate yet. He knew i was hesitant. I think he also knew why. That's why we never became an item. We just did what felt right.

He doesn't kiss my lips because he says it's disrespectful to do something so meaningful without that person being your's. He only kisses me during our most intimate moments. Or if i express my desire for him to kiss me. The reason i trust him so much is because he has always treated me with utmost care and respect.

I sleep in his room because it feels right. I feel safe in his arms knowing he will protect me with his life. When Travis first brought me here i stayed glued to him. He never got annoyed or upset with my clingyness. The first night i slept in the bed with him because i was scared to be alone. He was the only one who i showed my true weaknesses too.

He gave me my space by staying on his side of the bed. I was thankful for that. We did this for about a week until a room was finally set up for me next to his. It had a door adjoining the two rooms so i asked him if he minded leaving it open. He said "of course not."

One night i was having a nightmare. Only it was real. It had happened. He came in and woke me up. I swear he looked heart broken when he saw my frightened, tear-stained faced. He put his hands on my cheeks and i threw myself at him. i wrapped my arms around his neck and crawled into his lap. He held me for over an hour. Waiting for my sobs to stop.

When i finally came to my senses he pulled away and unfolded myself from him. I was so embarrassed. I apologized and he laughed at me.

"It's ok to be afraid Angel. It's even ok to cry. Cry all you want. Scream. Throw something! Get mad! Express how you feel! And let me be here for you." He said as he wiped a tear from my cheek. "Let me be here to wipe your tears. To hold you tight. To keep your every secret. To make you smile. To keep you safe. To protect you." He pleaded with me. I could only nod my head. How could someone care so deeply for me?

That night he laid down with me and stayed there till i fell asleep. When i woke up again it was morning. I had slept peacefully after Travis came in. So everytime i couldn't sleep or had a nightmare, I went to his room. I walked over and tapped him on the shoulder. He would always pull the covers back and open his arms for me to climb in.

I know i looked like such a child, but i felt safe in his warm embrace. So eventually i just started sleeping in his bed every night.

I smiled at the memory. I know he loves me. And i am completely head over heels for him. But I'm scared.

I'm scared of losing him. I'm scared that i will no longer have someone to hold me and keep me safe. No one could hold my heart like Travis does.

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