Only You

Chapter Fourteen

HELLOOOO. How are ya'll? It's almost August! Do you know what that means? School. I'm not looking forward to it, honestly. Sure, I'm excited for college and moving away, but packing? That's not happening.

Anyway, thank you so much for reading and voting. I'm so sorry I suck and I can't write or update soon enough but it's summer and everything is crazy. It took me a couple days to do this chapter and I still feel iffy about it, but this is what I have.

I'm thinking about starting a new story, I'm just having difficulties on what I want to write.

Anywho, thank you for reading and I hope you love this update!

-Lauren

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Chapter Fourteen

Ryder

I couldn’t get out of there fast enough. The chilly summer air slapped me in the face as I made it outside into Hannah’s backyard. I loved her backyard because unlike my own, it was wide and spacious. I could breathe clearly without worrying about being suffocated with people breathing down my neck.

I ran my hands through my hair, taking deep breaths. I cannot believe I just made out with Ally, the one girl who mattered the most to me, and then I bolted like it was revolting. Her lips felt so natural on my own, it scared me how much I enjoyed her taste. This was getting too serious, the way I felt about her.

What could I even do for her anyway? I’ve already let her down, telling her I would be a good person and not leave her, and be the rock she needs for her dad. I have my terrible mood swings so she probably doesn’t even want to open up to me half the time.

But I need her to. I need her to tell me what she’s feeling and what she wants, something that she can inspire me to be. It was so fucking silly and ridiculous, I couldn’t believe all of these thoughts that were running through my head.

She was making out with Andy before she kissed me.

I didn’t matter to her at all.

I was probably being over dramatic, I can admit to that, but I couldn’t help it. She made me feel things that I never thought I actually gave two shits about. She was so fucking important to me, it scared me shitless.

There was no certain reason why I was standing outside Hannah’s house having a meltdown. I was well aware of these feelings before I arrived, I just didn’t realize how strong they were.

I was being pathetic, honestly. Just thinking about Ally was making me go crazy, with her giant smile even when she was having the shittiest day, or the way she lit up when she talked about something that sparked her interest, that’s what I loved about her. I loved how she could be so carefree and not give a damn about herself but care so much about someone else.

She was what I aspired to be.

Damn it. She was what I needed in my life.

“Fuckery.” I grunted, kicking the dirt. I plopped down on one of the chairs besides the fire pit and glanced up at the moon. I was going crazy, so crazy I couldn’t even explain it. Someone sat down next to me quietly, and just by their coconut scent, I already knew exactly who it was.

“You alright?” She asked me, fidgeting with her hands.

“Yeah.” I sighed, not daring to look at her.

“Then talk to me.” She insisted.

“About what?” I asked, looking into her eyes even though I knew exactly what answer she was looking for.