She Told Me Not to Worry (SEQUEL to He Told Me Not to Tell) COMPLETE

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Kenzie's POV

It's so difficult trying to act like everything's okay. I'm trying to prove to Mom that I don't have an issue with eating anymore just so she can stop pushing me to eat so much. But she said recovery takes time. She can tell that I'm not there yet. I've been almost caught so many times with my blades. I have to do everything in the bathroom because sometimes she doesn't knock before coming into my room.

Summer's coming, which means she expects me to where a bathing suit while swimming. She knows swimming has always been my favorite thing to do in the summer. But she'll see the new cuts, instead if just the fading scars that she's already aware of.

It's just hard trying to keep all of these thoughts in my head. I can't talk to anyone about them.

"Kenzie, lunch!" Mom called from downstairs. I sighed as I got up off my bed. I walked into the kitchen, where Mom had fixed two plates.

"I already know what you're going to say, but Mom, I'm seriously not hungry," I tried to explain. She have me a concerned look. Like she didn't believe me. "Honestly," I continued.

"I don't know, Kenzie," Mom sighed.

"I promise I'll eat dinner without a problem. I'm just not hungry right now."

She contemplated for a little before making a final decision. "Just eat a little bit of lunch."

"But Mom-"

"I'm not going to let you skip any meals, Kenzie. You know that." I rolled my eyes, which she noticed. "Give me all the attitude you want. You'll thank me someday." She walked past me with her lunch and left mine on the counter. She sat at the table and started eating. "Come on," she encouraged when she noticed I wasn't moving.

I grabbed the plate of food. Just the look of it made me want to throw up. It's not that Mom can't cook or anything, it's just that any type of food makes me nauseous. Any time I think about putting something in my stomach, I feel like I'm going to be sick.

I need to try to hide it, though. The sooner I can convince Mom that I'm eating well, the sooner I can start losing weight.

Demi's POV

I glanced at Kenzie as she ate. She says she doesn't have a problem with eating anymore, but it's so obvious that she does. She takes tiny bites, then spreads her food across her plate, trying to make it look like she's eating more than what she actually is. I recognize her behavior, and I know she's still hurting. I'm trying so hard to convince her that it's okay to eat, and that she's not fat, but she doesn't believe me. I know it took me a long time to get better, but I had professionals helping me.

I'm not sure if I'm enough to help Kenzie.

So I have a question. It isn't about the book, it's a personal issue I've been having. Recently, I've been getting these sharp pains in my stomach, something like a knife is being jabbed into me. It isn't connected with my cycle, and it isn't in the lower stomach like regular cramps usually are. Sometimes I get these pains after I eat, but other times they are completely random. I've also found that eating while this is going on makes the pain worse. Does anyone have any clue what this could be? Does anyone have any suggestions as to what I should do when these pains appear? Because they're pretty painful and really annoying.

I'm asking this in this book and my other one.