My Drug-In Editing

When's It Gonna Get Me?

^"My Shot" (among others) ~ Hamilton (b/c I'm trash) -- I imagine death so much it feels more like a memory. When's it gonna get me? In my sleep? Seven feet ahead of me?... also 1000+ words again!

Evie's POV

Ben is so cute when he's sleeping.  I've stayed by his side, watching him while also keeping an eye out for anything in Tommi's room.  Seeing Liam walk into the room across the hall with a nurse, I decide that now would be a nice time for a coffee break.  I look down at Ben, he's out cold.  I quietly leave his room.

Grabbing the coffee from the hospital's cafeteria, I begin to walk to Tommi's room. 

"Evelyn?" I hear my mom's voice from behind me.

"Yeah, mom?" I ask.

"Do you need to talk?  You've been through a lot and I'm here to listen."  She offers, kindly.  I'm not paying much attention to her, though.  Behind her, I think I see someone who looks really familiar walking into the cafeteria I had just left.  I couldn't remember who it was. 

"Not now mom.  I'll be fine.  I just want to go see Tommi right now and I don't want to take you away from work."  I tell her. 

"We'll talk about it later then." She says just as her pager beeps.  She looks down then quickly walks the other way.  I turn back down to Tommi's room.

"Evie!" Liam exclaimed as I walked into the room.

"Hey girl. We did it. We got away with barely a scratch."  Tommi smiles, excitedly. 

"Are you insane?"  I ask.  Did Tommi actually say 'barely a scratch'?  He got shot in the stomach!  That's a pretty significant scratch if you ask me. 

"Maybe a little" Tommi admits. 

"So did they tell you how bad it was?"  I ask him.

"Not super bad since I got into surgery relatively quickly.  They are watching me now to make sure nothing ruptures and the stitches stay in nicely. 

Tommi's POV

After a while, both Liam and Evelyn had fallen asleep in my room.  I would've been asleep with them, but my phone kept lighting up.  Alex was texting me.  He was upset about something.  He kept saying things like 'you're going to regret this' and 'it'd be a shame to lose Liam after all of this'. 

Tommi:  What do you even want?      I ask him, unsure if I wanted to even hear his response. 

Alex:  Just come out and talk to me. 

Tommi: Out where?

Alex: Into the hall.

Tommi:  I don't think so

Alex:  Fine then.  Shall I grab your friends a nice cup of coffee?  Maybe we could all hang out together.  I'm sure they'd love that.  A repeat of what they just helped other's escape from.

Tommi:  Are you out there now?

Alex:  Yes you pestering imbecile.

Tommi: dude chill, I'll be right out

I gathered my IV and walked out to the door quietly.  Liam would hate me if he woke up to see me sneaking off to talk to Alex.   I had to do this, though.  I didn't want to know what Alex had in mind if I didn't talk to  him.  I mean, we're just going to talk. 

As soon as I'm out of my room, he grabs my arm.  Holding me up, he leads me down the hall.  A couple nurses look at us, confused, but they dismiss it since it looks like he's just helping me take a walk. 

"What do you want Alex?" I ask, making sure annoyance is clear within every syllable I utter.

"I want you to leave Liam alone.  He's mine.  He's just working through some things right now."  He explains in an impossible calming tone.

"How about... No.  You were willing to cheat on him.  Just earlier you wanted to kill him and his best friend." 

"That's not what I want, but if I can't have him... no one can."  He says coldly.  He turns to face the room.  Letting go of my arm he runs towards my room... towards Liam.  I'm still a little wobbly.  I'm not supposed to be doing any exercise at all.  I just got out of surgery. 

"Alex!" I call out, starting to run after him.  I reach the doorway of my room and I see him standing over Liam.  "Alex..." I say, this time, barely a whisper.  "I'll leave him if you leave everyone else be.  Stay away from my friends and tell your stupid friends to stay away from them too."  I wheeze, falling to my knees.  I'm out of breath and my stomach feels like it's being ripped apart. 

"Tommi?  Are you okay?"  He asks, his voice seemingly worried.

"It's just my stomach," I say, doubling over.  The pain is almost unbearable and I can feel blood coming out of my wound. 

"Tommi!" He shouts. "Oh, no. No. No. You weren't supposed to get hurt.  None of you were." He lifts me into the hospital bed and pushes the alarm button.  Soon, the room is filled with nurses and doctors, now wheeling me away.  I can hear Liam call after me, now woken up by the chaos.  Everything is a blur.  The lights overhead were bright and piercing.  Each one seemed to stab into my eyes.  I know they've started surgery one me.  I'm still awake.  Even the doctors are panicking.  For a moment, everything is clear, then it all goes dark. 

Is this what dying really feels like?  It feels familiar, yet distant.  Or maybe I'm distant.  I don't want to die.  I don't want to leave Liam.  Why did I talk to Alex?  Why did I run after him?  Alex even said no one was supposed to get hurt.  He wasn't going to kill anyone.  Was this all for nothing?  No.  It was for something.  It was for my boyfriend.  It was for my best friend.  It was for Evelyn.  It was for Alex.  It was to prove to Erik and his posse that I wouldn't give up.  I wouldn't let them walk all over me.  I wouldn't let them win. 

My thoughts swirled around my brain.  I felt totally buzzed.  I would know, Ben always hated that I smoked out in the fog corner.  Ha.  The fog corner.  At school.  Where this whole mess started.  Where Alex and I... and then I met Liam.  I love Liam.  I also love Ben, although in a total friend way.  Ben had found Evelyn, but that didn't stop me from caring about him.  If anything, it made me love Evelyn (also in a friend way).  I cared about all of them so much.  I couldn't let anything else bad happen to them.  I felt like I had to protect them.  Hopefully, I did. 

Hopefully, I secured their lives.  If I died for them,  it would have been worth it.

I can't feel the pain anymore.  The doctors' yelling turns into a peaceful song.  The bright lights, shining above me, go out.  As I let out my last breath. My last hopes.  My last thoughts.  All it was like was falling asleep.  Though there was chaos around me, all I felt was peace.  Though I would leave behind pain, all I felt was love. 

A/N: AHH Tommi!!!! Nooooo- He died in hopes of saving his friends. I'm sad and I even knew it was coming. Sorta. Let me know what you think...

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