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It Keeps Me Awake

^ "I'm sleeping all these demons away | But your ghost, the ghost of you | It keeps me awake" Ghost by Ella Hendersen

Alex's POV

I couldn't get him out of my mind. Tommi, bleeding from his stomach. Tommi, getting wheeled away by doctors and nurses yelling. Tommi, the same Tommi who would wink at me in the halls. The same Tommi that would flirt with me endlessly. The same Tommi who wouldn't do anything by flirt because he genuinely cared about how Liam would feel. The same Tommi who loved everyone, who cared for everyone, who would give anything in order to help anyone. I never thought he'd be so selfless as to die for someone. The thought haunts me every moment.

Turning over in my bed, I look at my alarm clock. It was 2 am. Great. I had just woken up from another nightmare. They always went the same way. Tommi dies in a pool of his blood, Ben gives me that look like he's going to kill me, Evelyn doesn't look past my shoes, and Liam. Oh, Liam, his face etched with pain. I never meant to hurt him. I loved him. Who am I kidding, I still love him. I know he told everyone not to talk to him, but I can't just keep quiet. I pull out a pen and a piece of paper.

I know you don't want to talk, but hopefully, reading will be okay. I just want to clear the air. I don't know what the doctors told you, but I know that your friends seem to blame me for Tommi's death. I never wanted him to die. I wanted you to be mine. He had you. I was envious, but I didn't mean for him to die. I hope you'll see that. I also hope that you'll talk to me. I love you, Liam. Why can't we be the token cute gay couple again? -A

I signed it with an "A" hoping that he'd laugh just a little from the Pretty Little Liar reference. We used to watch that show together.

Evie's POV

I couldn't sleep for more than an hour at a time. I lay awake, looking at the clock. I think it says 2 am. From the room behind mine, I can hear various groans and moans. I get up, knowing I won't be able to sleep worrying about Ben.

"Ben, are you okay?" I ask, stepping into his room.

"Noooo." Ben groans. He's on his side facing away from me.

"What's wrong Benny?" I ask, walking around his bed in order to see his face.

"Had a bad dream," He says, rolling onto his back. I see him wince as his shoulder hits the bed. He tried to hide it, but he couldn't hide it from me.

"Do you ned an ice pack?" I ask already knowing the answer.

"No, come lay down," He says, groaning as he scoots over to make room for me.

"I'm getting you an ice pack." I turn around and walk down to the kitchen. I can't help but remember our first kiss in this kitchen. It was just filled with so much love, passion, sweetness. I hope Ben knows that I still love him as much, no more, as that day. I grab a squishy icepack and head back up to Ben's room.

"You didn't have to" Ben starts, but I shush him.

"I did. You can't just wallow in pain and your mom told me to make sure it was taken care of." I admitted. His mom had a list of things for me to make sure Ben does in order for him to fully heal, knowing full well that Ben would just dismiss it and try to tough through the pain.

"My mom put you up to this?" He groans.

"She didn't have to." I laugh a little at his stubbornness while pressing the ice pack to his shoulder. He took a sharp breath in but soon relaxed. He pulls me with his good arm to lay down. I end up falling half on top of him. Trying to move to avoid hurting him, I feel him wrap his good arm tightly around me, holding me where I was.

"I love you, Ev," He whispers, kissing the top of my head. I take a deep breath in, his scent calming me. "Ev?" Ben questions.

"Yeah?" I ask back.

"Are you smelling me?" He chuckles.

"I love you," I say, nuzzling into him. Finally, sleep found me.

A/N: What do you think of the aftermath? What do you think about Alex?

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