In Love With My Best friend

Family

*one day later*

"Josh are you ever gonna tell me wait happened after i left? Did you hit her? I hope you didn't. You know how i feel about abuse. Especially towards your mother or any women. Please just talk to me; you've been silent since you came home last night. Are you ok?" I asked.

"I'm sorry. I fine. My mother is fine. My father.... He's gonna be ok. I didn't hit anyone. My mother did all the hitting. All i did was push her. Then my father yelled at her and gripped her up and she pushed him through the window and continued hitting on me until i manage to push he against the wall and throw her on the floor. My father was knocked unconscious." Josh explains. He then goes on to tell me how his night ended.

"Josh, im so sorry. Its all my fault. I just wanted our children to see their Grandparents and to bond. Then i suggested she was bitch and kept going on about it. Im sorry." I began to cry

"None of this is your fault. None. You just wanted to do a nice thing for the kids. Thats what i love about you. Stop crying, mon amour." Josh tells me

"Mon amour?" I questioned.

"It mean my love in French,"

"Oh. Stop it you're gonna make me cry even more! I love you," I told him.

"I love you too," and with that me kissed. "So, is there a jelly bean in the pot?" Josh asked. What?

"What?"

"Are you pregnant?" He asked.

"I don't know and i don't want to know right now. My mother is about 6 or seven months now and she texted me telling me she's almost home. I don't know want to have to deal with the stress of a baby. I have two four year olds already." I told him honestly.

"Ok... But you gotta find out sooner or later." He says

"Im hoooooooome!!!" I hear someone shout. Mother! I run downstairs and hug her.

"Mom!" I said. Suddenly i felt her belly and a kick.

"Ooo be careful. Oh and there it goes again. This little guy just keeps kicking." She says. Then Madison comes up and hugs her.

"Mom, this is Caleb. My boyfriend!" Madi says. This girl confuses me.

"Ahh, nice to meet you. Take good care of my girl ok?" Mom says.

"Um yea, of course. I love this girl," Caleb says.

"Caleb, huh? How long have you guys been together?" I asked. Madison glared at me.

"Um about 4 months, why?" He asked

"No reason. Madi can i talk to you alone?" I asked. We then started walking somewhere else.

"Fine, what is it?" She asked

"You're not really with Caleb right?" I asked

"No he's just a friend. I just need some time before i tell mom and Shawn."

"Ok. You know it would hurt to call him dad," i told her.

"He's your dad. Your father. My father raped me and then left out of our lives." She says

Flashback: first day in institution (2 and a half years ago--
After i got settled in, it was time for me to join the support circle. I walked up to the nearest empty chair and sat down with a room full of strangers. "Alright i guess Chris isn't getting out of his room any sooner so let's begin. To those who don't know, i am Max, the councilor/therapist/mentor. I am here to help and support you. Next. Lets start off with our new guest. Ashley," One guy says.
"Ok.. I'm Ashley, I'm 18 years old. I'm here because i haven't been happy. I'm depressed, sad, angry. I'm never happy. And i need to be happy again." I told. These are strangers. Why did i even come here.
"Hi Ashley," everyone says. "Um i have a question for Ashley," one guy says. The mentor nods his head. "Im Gabe and im here for anger management. But why are you so sad and so angry?" He asked. Do i have to answer?
"I was raped. More than once by the same guy. I feel so stupid for allowing myself to forgive him for the first time he raped me. I opened that door again for him and he took every chance he could get. I don't feel the same. I feel used and dirty and i should feel this way." I told him.
"Thanks for sharing Ashley." The mentor says. Suddenly i hear someone coming down the stairs. "Ah, Chris you are joining us!" Meet Ashley. I think I'll pair you two up so that we can get the perspective of a rape suspect and a rape victim." Max says. Wait, Chris? Rape? This could be the Chris I know. The Chris that raped my sister. I turned around and looked at him. It was him!
"No! No! Not him anyone but him!" I yelled.
"Is there a problem?" Max asked me
"Yes! This person was my mothers husband he raped my sister and kidnapped me and beaten me." I told everyone. Then i walked out the room. I sat down somewhere, i don't even know where i am! Suddenly someone taps my shoulder. It was Ryan.
"Hey, calm down. No one is pressuring you to do anything you don't want to. This is a safe place. He's getting help just like you are." He tells me. I then just cry on his shoulder.

That wasn't all that happened. A few weeks later, he tried to rape me too but was caught by Max and Ryan. He had left bruises on me from beating me before he could rape me. Luckily he left and i got the help i needed.

"You ok?" Madi asked.

"Yea. Just thinking. Hey, I think you should come out. Be yourself. Don't create a shell," i told her.

"Thanks. I will.... Eventually," she tells me. I then smile and walk away. I then walked pass the children's room and i see Josh playing with the children. I cant wait to be his wife.