In Love With My Best friend

Baby I'm Back

one hour later---- at hospital.---

It's been an hour of screaming, pain, swearing, and mood swings.

"I have to push two heads out!" I screamed

"At least you don't have to push them out at the same time." Madison says

"Shut up" I yelled.

"Geez I was just trying to make you feel better." She says. Then my OBGYN came in and check how far I was.

"Alright, your ten cm dilated and ready to push. Let's have a baby." Dr. Mancini says. Then she tells me to push and I do as instructed. My vagina will never be normal again. This feels like.... I can't even describe it, it hurts so bad!

"I HATE JOSH I HATE YOU!!!!!" I scream. Then I breathe for air.

"Ok good now breathe." Dr. Mancini says.

"Do I have to push again?" I asked.

"Yes." Everyone says in unison

"OK." I yelled

"Alright Ashley, push!" Dr. Mancini shouts. Then I pushed.

Three hours later-----

You know how on the movies after they have the baby they have such joy and happiness on their face, well, I didn't experience that. I did love both of my babies but I wasn't happy. I felt..... Depressed. I didn't want to have to live this life. Don't get me wrong I love my babies but .... I don't know, maybe I'm just tired. I have two boys. I'm scared to find out what the future holds for me. Suddenly Nathan came in the room.

"Hey.... How are you?" He asked

"Exhausted. Scared." I told him.

"Yea... Where's Joshua?" He asked

"At home. He wanted to freshen up. Actually everyone went home." I told him.

"Ok.... Good good." He says. Then he sits next to me. "Do you fell any different now that the babies are here?" Nathan asked

"What is this, 20 questions? I'm fine... Just a little stressed out and I'm so tired but I can't go to sleep I feel like I'm already a horrible mother." I explained

"Trust me, you are gonna make a great mother. Don't ever doubt yourself." He tells me. Then he kissed me.

Josh's p.o.v -----

I go over to the room and I see Ashley and Nathan kissing. I quickly walked away and went to my car. How the hell can she be so stupid? Is she in love with him? What the hell happen to us? I should've stayed with Ivy. Why did I have to fall in love with Ashley.

Ashley's p.o.v

"Nathan, what are we doing?" I asked

"I don't now. Ashley.... I think I fell for you." Nathan tells me. I just stay quiet. "Ashley, did you hear me? I said I fell for you. " He says.

"Nathan..... I can never erase what you did to me and there was point where I thought I loved you too but I'm not quit sure now." I said. Then he kissed me again.

"Don't tell me you didn't feel anything just now." He says. Then I kissed him.

"I did. But, I think we shouldn't do anything now. I just became a mother and I don't think this is the right time." I told him he nods his head and then walked out.

"Alright Ashley, do you now what you're gonna name them." Dr. Mancini says as she enters the room. I knew one name I wanted to name but not the other.

"Um I only know one name so far." I told her.

"That's ok. What is it?" She asked

"Liam. For this one. The one born after the first one." I told her.

"Ok. Why Liam?" She asked as she wrote the name down.

"I know someone who I trust with all my heart and is a great man named Liam." I told her she smiled and walked out the room. Suddenly The baby I didn't name started crying.

"Oh no, baby don't cry please don't cry. Shhhh." I said. Then I picked him and started rocking him. He stopped crying once I rocked him. He looked up and me and smiled and I smiled back. "Hi baby, I'm your mama, and I'm gonna love you forever. Both of you." I said. I even started to cry. Oh my god emotions these days.

"He does look like you in the eyes. But he's got my facial features." Josh says.

"Oh hi. I didn't know you were standing there." I said.

"Yea. So... You named one Liam and the other one can be Joshua Jr." He says

"Liam and Joshua. Ha, been there done that. I cheated on Liam with you I don't think I wanna remind myself of that. " I said

"Oh right..... How about Jake." He says.

"Jake..... Ok.. Yea. Jake and Liam." I smiled and Josh smiled to. Then he picked up Liam.

"I'm gonna be you dad for the rest of your life. No one's stopping that." He says.

"Alright Ashley, you can be released tomorrow." Dr. Mancini tells me.

"Ok. But we found out a name for baby number two. It's Jake." I tell her

"Oh good. Ok well I'll be back to check on you and the babies." She says. I nod then she walks away. Suddenly I see Sophia.

"Sophia! What are you doing here?! Where have you been!!?" I asked with excitement.

"Places I shouldn't have been. But I heard you were having another baby and you were going through labor so I thought I had to show up." Sophia tells me. She didn't look the same she looked skinny and boney and she was shivering.

"Sophia, what happen to you?" I asked in concern. She looks at Josh and I can tell she felt uncomfortable with him in the room. "Um Josh, will you excuse us for a moment?" I asked.

"Yea sure." He says then he puts the baby down and leaves the room.

"I got hooked on drugs. I don't even know how it started. I think I was angry at my father and I just wanted it to go away. I remember who introduced me to drugs though. I heard you're falling for Nathan. Don't do it Ashley. Even if at the time he introduced me to drugs at the time he was a jerk and he's not any more. Don't trust him, because sooner or later he's gonna go back to the jerk he was." Sophia tells me.

"Sophia, I can't stop myself from having feelings for anyone." I said.

"Ok. But I need you to be careful." Sophia says.

"I will, I am. I'm not even sure if I want to be in a relationship right now." I tell her. She nods her head.

"Well I should go now." She says

"Sophia, if you ever wanna talk, I'm here for you." I tell her

"Ok." She says then she gives me a weak smile and walks out.

two days later------

I'm home and the babies are in their cribs. I'm so tired. My doctor is gonna be coming over to teach me how to breast feed tomorrow. I'm so exhausted so I think I'm gonna get some sleep. I hope Sophia's Ok.