In Love With My Best friend

Mixed Feeling

continued ~~~~~~~~ (Madison's p.o.v)
1 hour later----

I went upstairs to go to the bathroom and I find Ashley lying on the floor.

"Ashley! Come on Ashley wake up! No no not this again. Mom! Dad!" I shouted. Years ago Ashley use to cut her self to the point where she would almost die. She hasn't done that in a while, until now. Mom and Dad came running up the stairs.

"What's wrong?" Mom asked. Then she screamed of shock and fear.

"Oh my god!" Dad says. Then he picks her up and runs with her in his arms. I've never seen Dad care more for Ashley, only if her life is in danger.

"Is she gonna be ok?" I asked

"She just need to get to the hospital." Mom panics. Then we all run to the car and drive to the hospital.

at the hospital ---------------

We rushed in the hospital and doctors and nurses came rushing to us and layed Ashley on a bed. We all had to wait in the waiting room until further notice.

2 hours later--------

A doctor came over and talked to us. As soo as she came over we all stood up.

"She's fine, she needed a blood transfusion and some fluids. Are you guys aware that she's pregnant?" The doctor asked

"Yea." Mom says.

"Well she had alcohol in her system. Then she tried to commit suicide. I really think she should get into therapy. She's going through a rough time." The doctor says

"More than you know." Mom says

"what's that suppose to mean?" Dad asked

"We should talk about this another time." Mom says

"No I wanna know now what are you talking about?" Dad says. Then the nurse walked away

"Ashley didn't mean to get pregnant. She didn't even mean to have sex." Mom says '

"No duh that's how most teenage pregnancy start." Dad says

"No, God I don't know how to say this in a pleasant way so I'm just gonna say it. She was raped, on the night of the prom. She didn't even have sex until than and now she found out that her first time, unwanted by the way, and she's pregnant. She's going through so much. Maybe we should get her help." Mom explains. My sister was raped? I've been such a bitch to her and so has my dad. We never knew what she was reallly going through. We all went to the room where Ash was.

"She's resting." The nurse says as she comes in and check on her.

"Do you guys know how many months pregnant she is?" Dad asked

"I'd say about three to four months." The nurse says.

"Oh..." Dad says. I can tell he's feeling really bad.

Ashley's p.o.v

I feel so weak. I guess loosing and gaining blood takes out all the energy. I don't even want to let my family know I'm awake so, I keep my eyes closed.

"When wil she be able to get out?" Madison asked

"In about a day or two. The doctors and I really think that she needs talk to a therapist. Suicide is serious. And she's about to  be a teen mom." She says. Then the nurse walked out

"If you guys think I'm gonna talk to a stranger that gets payed just for listening to me repeat history, then you all are stupid!" I said

"Ashley, you have to talk to someone. You are hurt and if we can't help you than someone has to be able to."

"I don't need any help! What I need is for everyone to just back off and stop treatin me like a delicate flower! I need someone that understands what I'm going through. I need someone that'll tell me that everythings gonna be ok and that I'm fine just they way I am." I said

"So you want someone to lie to you. Becuse Ashley, you are not ok! You got drunk and tried to commit suicide! Not to meantion what being raped did to you! You're getting help, whether you like it or not!" Mom says

"I agree." Dad says

"Me too." Madison says

" Oh don't go feeling sorry for me. Can I please just get some privacy!" I asked. I was full of anger for no reason. What's wrong with me.

three days later~~~~~~ at school

I walked in and everyone was starring at me.

"So it's true you got an abortion?" Some random girl asked when she came up to me.

"Um no." I said

"So you're pregnant?" She asked and everyone was starring at me. I just panicked and ran to the bathroom.  Suddenly someone came in the bathroom.

"Is it true?! Are you pregnant!!?" Nathan asked

"If I am? What are you gonna do?"  I asked

"I'll ask you if it's mine. Then I'll suggest you get an abortion." He says

"It's yours and it's too late in the pregnacy for an abortion. Now what?" I said

"I don't know?! I didn't mean for this to happen! I feel really bad for what I did. I'm so sorry!' He says as he comes closer. Then I back away

"Just don't! Don't get any closer!" I said . Then I walked out and went to my locker.

"Hey." Josh says

"Hi." I said

"Why are you wearing long sleeves? It's kinda warm out." He says

"I'm cold." I said. Then he pulled my sleeve up.

"I know you too well! Ash, why? You need help." He says

"I know that! Everyone tells me that! I'm tired of hearing it! Good bye Josh!" I said then I walked to class.

in class------

I walked in and everyone was starring at me. Even the teacher was.

"Well let's resume." The teacher says. I couldn't bare being in there so I walked out and left the school. As luck would have it, Josh was there. God I love him but I just can't trust.

"Hey, wait. Come here." He say and I can't help but cry in his shoulders. "Shhhh. It's all gonna be ok. Everythings gonna turn out fine ok? You have me" He says Then I look up at him and kiss him. He kissed me back. Oh my god did I seriously do that.

"I'm sorry." I said then I ran out.

"Ashley, wait." He says then he chases me and grabs my good arm and pulles me in and hugs me some more.

"I'm sorry. I don't know what is happening to me." I cried and he comfort me.

"I know, I'm right here. You wanna ditch school and talk?" He asked and nodded. Suddenly his lips were on mine and I just rolled with it.

"Did you mean to kiss me?" I asked

"Yea, I guess I did." He tells me. Then we walked away with our arm wrapped around eachother. I never stopped loving him. Maybe he feels the same??