In Love With My Best friend

The Confession of Pain

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 I walk out his car and he was right, it's hard to walk because I'm in so much pain. I can barely walk. I try to walk into my house. 

"Hey what are you doing home so early?" Mom asked

"The prom sorta sucked and they spiked the drinks and it was just not for me." I said

"Yea you ok? You're limping." Mom says

"Um yea I'm fine, Just too much dancing and I fell and people kept steeping on my feet and I'm where heels." I told her

"Ok, well good night." Mom said then I walked upstairs went into my room, slammed the door and then I just cried.

three days later

My heart is broken. My brain is shut down. My life is gone. I can barely breathe. He seemed like a great guy so kind so sweet. Then he...... Did what he did to me. Why me? That question keeps popping up in my head. Why?

"Ash. C'mon. You're gonna be late for school." Mom says. She doesn't know anything.

"Can I not go to school today? I'm just not up for it." I said as I came down the stairs 

"Well you're going. Come on now get ready." Mom said

"Mom?" I said as I started crying. I was so close to telling her.

"Oh, honey, what's wrong?" She asked with a concerned face. Ok Ashley tell her.

" Ummm.............. I just don't feel well." I said. I should've told her.

"Oh, ok. Fine stay home. I have today off anyway so maybe we can just sit and chat or go out to themall or get some food." Mom says

"No I think I just wanna stay home today and chill. I wuldn't wanna get anyone else sick or anything." I said then I went back upstairs. Suddenly I got a phone call. It was Josh

on the phone............

Josh: Hey. So you been pretty distant lately. What's up?

Me: Nothing much. Look I wont be at school today so now Ivy can have you all to herself.

Josh: Wait, you're gonna be absent. You're never absent, In third grade when you got surgery on your knee you came to school late in a wheel chair. So this has to be serious, what's up?

Me: I just don't feel well. Ok?!!

Josh:  Ok...... Well I guess I'll see you when I see you. (he hangs up.)

But he was right, I was never absent. And I shouldn't let some fear scare me from going to school. So maybe I should go.  I walked back downstairs .

"Hey mom maybe I caan go to school. I went in worst cses so I'm not gonna let some cold get in the way of that." I said

"Ok. But you better hurry. And Ashley?" She says

"Yea mom?"I asked

"If you want to talk about anything, I here for you." mom says. Does she know?

"Um... Yea, of course." I said then I put my coat on and got my bag and walked to my car. I just sat in my car for a while. I started to feel boxed in. I get out my car and started to walk to school instead.

"Ashley. Do you want me to drive you?" Mom asked 

"Um, sure." I said then I went back and went into my mom's car.

during the car ride.

"So are you ever gonna tell me what really happened at the dance or are we just gonna sit in silence?" Mom asked

"Nothing happened." I said

"Yes, something did happen. You seem to forget I was in high school too. I know what it's like. You came in the house, limping and crying. Saying, Oh yea mom I'm fine people just steped on my feet and I fell. Guess what Ashley, I'm not stupid! I found your prom dress in the trash! You weren't limping because your feet hurt! There are two different limps. So let me get straight to the point, did you have sex?" She said. Oh no. She is getting close. Should I tell her? I just don't want to disapoint her or hurt her.

"No! I didn't nessasarily have sex." I said. Opps. Nessasarily? What is wrong with me?

"Well what does that mean? Either you had sex or you didn't!" Mom yelled

"I was raped Ok! There I said it! You happy?!! You satified??!!" I yelled. Then she slammed on the breaks.

"I don't even know what to say. I just feel so angry. Who did this to you? Was it that Nathan guy?! Ashley please just tell who it is so I can Kill them!" Mom says. Then I started crying and she started crying. "You still wanna go to school?" She asked

"I don't know. Mom, I'm scared. He really hurt me, physically and mentally. I can't even be in a car without freaking out. The only way I didn't go completely insane is because these windows are open and you're here." I told here

"Oh honey. Don't worry. I'm right here. No matter what. And we are going to get through this, together." She tells me then she hugs me.

"I wanna go to school. Nathan is jerk and an asshole and doesn't deserve to make me feel scared or to make me not want to come to school." I said

"Ok. Then that's where we're going. Oh and I'll let that language pass for today." Mom said then she started the car again and drove to school.

At school...

"Do you want me to come in with you?" She asked. I feel like a baby.

"No. Just pick me up." I said. Then she hugges me and kisses me on the forehead.

"Ok, you be safe. And stay clear of him and any other guy for that matter. Even Josh." Mom says. I just nod my head. Then I get out my car and walk to the building. Mom didn't drive away until I went into the building.

"Can I have a late slip?" I asked the counseler.

"Yea sure. Do you wanna talk about it?" She asked. Oh no does she know too?

"Talk about it?" I asked in painic

"About the reason you're late." She says

"Oh, I um. I just woke up late and took a long shower." I told her.

"Ok well have a great day." She says. Then I walk out and go to my first class which was Math. Nathan is in my Math class.

In Math class

I walk in and he was just starring at me.

"Take a seat Ashley." The teacher said. I took a seat in the far back corner.

"Good to see you." Josh says

"Yea well like you said, I came to school even when I got surgery on my knee." I said. Then I noticed Nathan was still staring at me. Then the bell rang. We all walked out of class in a hurry and pushed my way through the hall way. Suddenly I heard him call me.

"Ashley!" He called out. Then I felt his hand on my shoulder. "Hey. Long time no see. You know I can never forget that special night after prom. Now we can have sex all the time and everywhere. Meet me in the boys bathroom." He says. Then he walks away. All I could do was cry. There's no way I'm going. I turn around and head out the door and out the school. Why me.