The Popular And the Geek.

Chapter 40: i love you.

C H A P T E R 40: I love you.

Ethan's Pov

"We can do this, together" I calmed her down. "Now, tell me what made you do this" I said. By now, Jakob and Chris went back home, leaving Alex and I alone.

"I don't know. The past days I've had this bad feeling and that feeling started getting worse. Hate comments and all that type of stuff started getting to me. I started feeling really bad, my head hurt, it felt like everything was spinning; I felt like I couldn't breath, like no air came in nor went out. I just felt bad" she finished up not looking up to me.

My heart felt so vulnerable for a second. I know what she felt. I've read about that and I've also seen a person go through that.

It was a panic attack. I think.

She felt so bad that she thought the only way to deal with it was by cutting.

"I think it was a panic attack" I said and her eyes opened wide. She knew what an panic attack was yet she never thought about what happened to her was that. If that made any sense.

"What am I supposed to do now?" She asked.

"You have to calm down and not think about anything other than things that make you happy." I answered. Even though I don't know exactly what to do, I think that will help a little. "Now breath" I continued to say and hold her hands tight. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, leaving it out afterwards. She continued to do that a couple of more times, and while she had her eyes closed, I couldn't help but stare at the place were she had cut minutes ago. I could've stop this from happening.

"I love you, okay? Whenever you feel like this again just call me. I don't care if it's four in the morning or two in the afternoon, just call me. I'll always answer" I reassured to her as she opened her eyes.

"Thank you so much, Ethan" she answered. I gave her a quick kiss and hugged her afterwards. Tight, to let her know that everything is going to be okay. She hugged me back almost as tight as I am hugging her, if only I could know what goes through her mind.

"Please don't do that again" I whispered in her ear. My voice cracked.

"I promise you I won't" she answered. Her beautiful voice made me wonder what would be of me if she wasn't here. The thought of not seeing her and not being able to hear her came to my head. She could've died if she cut to deep in the wrong place, and I wouldn't even noticed that. What if she died? What if the I love you I texted her was the last one she would text me back? Before I even knew, tears were already coming out my eyes and I was already sobbing in her shoulder with her comforting me.

"I don't want you to go" I told her.

"I won't" she answered with her voice cracked. I continued to cry in her shoulder and she continued to hug me tight.

"I love you" she told me and wiped away the tears from my cheeks.

She hugged me tight for the next few minutes.

"You can sleepover if you want" she said and I nodded.

After a while I walked back home to grab my things to sleep over at hers. My mum and dad aren't home and Thalia is sleeping over at her friends house so there's no much sense on me staying here alone. It's only six in the afternoon.

I walked back to her house and entered without even knocking on the door, she knew it was me. I entered to her room and she was already showered, did I took that long to get my stuff?

From: CJEA (Chris)
Hey guys! Are you down for camping?

From: CJEA (Princess)
That sounds good for me!