Jamie's POV
Everyday was a drag. I would wake up and have no energy to get up or to do anything. I was getting weaker and weaker. When I looked into the mirror all I saw was an empty, lonely girl who was tearing herself apart. I wasn't happy anymore and I hated life more then ever.
My everyday routine consisted of waking up, take a shower, put makeup on my face and wrists, go to the kitchen and eat an apple, go back to my room and check emails and then when "dinner" would come around, I would pretend to eat with the girls and by this I mean chew extremely slow and then pretend I was full after a few bites.
That was basically my life. Living in such a beautiful country with a broken heart and messed up mind. The only thing that I guess kept me running was the show coming up.
I was currently in front of the full body mirror in only my bra and panties critiquing myself running my fingers over my stomach and pinching at my skin.
My collar bone and rib cage were super defined. Although those were signs of my malnutrition my messed up mind wasn't satisfied with how my body looked. My thoughts were a whirlwind and I broke down. I lowered myself to the ground and begin to cry into my arms
Nicole came in and found me on the floor a crying mess. She grabbed a nearby blanket to cover me with and held me in her arms. I was so thankful to have such a caring best friend.
"Jamie everything's going to be alright" "I hope so Nicole, I hope so.. because I can't take it anymore. I thought coming here would help me escape my pain but it didn't, it came with me" I said while wiping my tears and controlling my breath. I fell asleep shortly after.
Nicole's POV
Jamie had fell asleep on my lap and I wasn't planning on getting up and waking her so I got on my phone and texted Saul to inform him of what Jamie has just gone through.
Nicole: Hey Saul I just wanted to let you know that Jamie just had a breakdown
Saul: oh no what happened?
Nicole: Well I don't really know I came into her room to check up on her and she was on the floor crying in front of her mirror. I'm guessing she was looking at her self because she was only in her bra and panties....
Saul: Is she okay now?
Nicole: Yeah she fell asleep in my arms but I'm really worried for her I know for a fact, she's back to her E.D.
Saul: I made her promise to not go back to that but because of my decisions I broke her and she lost herself but I'm going to fix her once I get there, and that's a promise Nicole.
Nicole: I hope so Saul, I really do. I need my happy and healthy best friend back.
Saul: I know Nicole and you'll get her back. Please just hold her tight and caress her, something I couldn't do obviously
Nicole: Hey don't be so hard on yourself shit happens, as much as I wish you hadn't chosen to do what you did at least you're owning up to it and are genuinely trying to fix it and that right there shows something about you
Saul: Thanks Nicole. Jamie is really lucky to have you.
Nicole: Wbu? You're not lucky to have me?
Saul: You still consider me a friend after what happened?
Nicole: Oh Saul of course, like I said the fact that you owned up to it and are trying your hardest to fix it says so much about you and those are the kinds of people I want as friends
Saul: thank you, that just made my day
Nicole: you're welcome
Saul: anyways I gotta go please keep me informed of anything else that happens
Nicole: will do Saul
Jamie's POV
I woke up the next day in bed. I suppose Nicole was the one that put me there after my breakdown. I went into the restroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. Nicole came in shortly after.
"Hey girl how are you feeling?" "Good uh sorry about what happened yesterday" "no don't worry about it, I'm just glad I came in at the right time to comfort you, here I brought you this shake" she handed me the glass.
