Canelo's POV
Having her in my arms was the best feeling ever. I just couldn't understand why she was being so nice to me after everything.
I took a hold of her wrist and ran my thumb over her scars. "Jamie why did you do this to yourself?" "Because I wanted to relieve the pain. I did it because I wanted to cope with the pain I felt inside, the pain I felt of not being good enough for you and because you didn't trust me"
"Baby girl-. sorry I mean Jamie, I will always be sorry for the rest of my life but I can't believe you did all this because of me? Like who am I for you to go and hurt yourself, I'm nobody, what was going through your head when you were doing this..." he said while pointing at my wrists.
"Well I felt that I wasn't pretty enough, I felt rejected, I felt ugly. I like one one was on my side but most importantly I felt alone. As for who are you, a nobody? No Saul you were my everything and it destroyed me seeing you happy with another woman. It made me feel incompetent, I never knew I would be able to love someone like how I with you"
We sat in silence for a little. "I'm sorry Jamie I really am" he then ran his hand down my cheek and stayed quiet for a moment while staring into each other's eyes. "It's okay it happened, it's done. It's time to move on" "how could you think like that Jamie? Why are you being so nice to me? I appreciate it but I don't deserve it"
"Because this experience has made me realize I can forgive and move on" I could see his eyes get watery again. I spoke with my voice barely above a whisper. "It's okay Saul don't cry" I ran my thumb under his eyes. He grabbed my hand and ran his thumb over it. I just slightly smiled and comforted him.
The nurse came in and handed me an Ensure nutritional shake. "Hey Nicole was giving me these while I was here. I thought they were like protein shakes or something?" I stared at it for a minute. "here let me open it for you, you got this"
I slowly sipped on it. Bad thoughts wanted to creep up but I pushed them away. I had to drink this to get better. "Oh god I don't think I can continue" Saul took ahold of the drink "just a few more sips, please" "okay I'll try" after a sip and a half I couldn't go any further. "Do you think I can finish it later?" "I don't know we need to ask the doctor?"
Jamie's POV
There was a knock at the door. "Come in" "hey guys sorry to interrupt, I just spoke with the doctor and I'm just basically here to repeat everything he said. So you slowly need to start eating more obviously with your situation it isn't going to be easy but you have to give it all you got. He said no more exercising for awhile, at least until you are at a normal, healthy weight. He emailed me your meal plan, it's in Portuguese but I'll translate it for you. He suggests you go and see someone about your mental health. Overall the doctor is wishing you a good and safe recovery. "Okay great" I smiled and watched her walk towards the door. "Oh yeah one more thing the doctor said you'll be discharged today so I'll bring it to you so I can help you with it okay" "yeah"
"wait Nicole!" "Yes!?" "I didn't exactly finish the Ensure is that bad? Can you ask the doctor if I could just finish it later?" "Sure thing I'll be back"
A few minutes later Nicole came in with a clipboard. "Hey sorry to interrupt once again but here's the paperwork. The nurse basically summarized everything for me and I gave it a good look so you're okay to sign it. As for your Ensure problem he gave me this little ensure compact which is half the size of the one you just had. He said for sure you have to finish this in one sitting, I think that sums it all up so sign here please"
Saul got up from the bed. "Alright I'll be back. I'm going to go and pay for the expenses" "no it's fine I can pay for it myself" "Jamie I'm not going to argue with you. I got you where you are today and this is the least I can do. Plus who's going to stop me? You?" He chuckled "matter of fact yes I will, Nicole hold my clipboard"
"woah woah woah no way stay in bed until all the paperwork has been submitted and then I'll carry you out" I shook my head. I honestly didn't have the energy to argue.
After signing the paperwork and handing them in, I was officially being discharged and could finally go home. Nicole helped me change into a sweater and yoga pants. "Ugh I feel weird with everyone helping me out when I could be doing this by myself" Nicole was putting on my shoes.
"Well Jamie girl get used to it because me and Saul are going to be keeping an eye on you and helping you out for awhile. It's not that we don't trust you being by yourself but we can't risk you having a relapse. Look at him and I as your personal coaches"
"fine" I sighed. "Nicole don't get me wrong, Brazil is nice and all but all I want to do is get back to the states to our home, I really miss our little place" "wanna know something? Me too. I love Brazil it's my homeland but the US is a second home and I've become so accustomed to it that I can't wait to go back"
Shortly after Saul came in and it was time to go. I sat in the middle between Nicole and Saul. "Hey Nicole can I see my phone?" "Yeah sure" I turned it back on and saw I had texts from people from the show. It was nice that they we're worried but honestly it was giving me a headache reading all of that. "Oh gosh no here you go take this away from me it's making me nauseous"
I layed my head back and closed my eyes for a bit since Alessia's place was not far from the hospital. Once at Alessia's place I insisted on walking but Saul and Nicole prohibited me. Saul picked me up and I wrapped my arms around his neck. "Am I too heavy?" He laughed. "Far from it Jamie" "I don't know, I feel like I'm heavy" "well you're not so don't worry about it"
He layed me on my bed and sat on the edge of the bed. "So this is where you were staying?" He looked around. "It's really pretty, what a great view" "yeah it is" "well I'm going to let you rest now I'm going to head back to the hotel. If you need anything please let Nicole know or me if you want." He grabbed my hand and kissed my forehead.
He got up but I stopped him. "Wait. Can you stay with me please. I'm cold and I couldn't help but feel warm in your arms in the hospital. Please stay." He smiled.
"Baby girl.." He paused and smiled. "I'm sorry I was just so used to calling you that-" I cut him off. "It's okay Saul I don't mind" he smiled once again. "As I was saying Jamie I'll always be by your side as long as you need and want me."
He layed next to me and I layed my head on his chest. His warmth immediately made me fall asleep.
Canelo's POV
I was happy that she asked me to stay with her, although that little voice in my head kept telling me I didn't deserve her after the way I treated her that night. Either way I was going to be by her side until she was better. I wasn't sleepy at all so I just decided to be on my phone.
Nicole came in the room 2 hours later with a tray of food letting me know it was Jamie's feeding time. I didn't want to wake her up because she looked so peaceful but right now getting food into her system was more important. I slowly ran my hand down her arm and whispered into her ear. She woke up. "Hey woah what's going on?" I laughed at how cute and confused she looked. "It's time for you to eat"
"Nooo I don't want to eat I want to keep sleeping" "you can do it its just half a sandwich and a few vegetables" she groaned a little. I could tell she was not happy about actually needing to eat some real food. "Jamie, I know this eating journey isn't going to be easy but you have to try your best and go at it with a good attitude. That's the only way you will be able to conquer this" she nodded her head.
"Yeah I guess you're right. It's not easy going from eating nothing to something in literally no time but I do want to get better so whatever I have to do, I'll do it." "that's what I want to hear" "so are you leaving Brazil with me and Nicole?" "yeah I'll be like your personal body guard" "oh please lol its not like I'm famous and being attacked by my fans"
"Jamie you have fans too because of your modeling career so don't even go there love but yes I'll be leaving with you guys so I can keep you company and be by your side for whatever you need" I smiled and took a bite of my sandwich
