Don't Fudging Say Mate!

Don't Fudging Say Mate! - Chapter 9

A/N: Hope you guys are enjoying the story! I know i'm enjoying writing it and loving how many of you are reading it :D Sorry this chapter isn't going to be long, but its important none the less and I hope you enjoy all the same. Please COMMENT, VOTE :D ~ Dannii x

Chapter 9:

Jax’s P.O.V

Storming out of Luce’s room, I ignored everyone only seeing red. ‘How could she leave me!’ I thought as rage ran through my body. ‘Is she really that naïve to think she can do this alone. There is god forsaken rogues out there!’ I thought as the worry ran through my body and mixed with the anger. I was really worried about her, she was so defenceless and naïve. Still so childish. I didn’t think she could make it out there alone. I just prayed I was wrong. I needed Luce to survive out there. Even if it was only until I got to her. Because I would get to her. I was determined, and so was my wolf. He was angry, but he wasn’t angry at Luce. No he was angry at me for not protecting her and listening to him and well he was right. I wasn’t angry at Luce either. I was angry at myself for being such a down right shitty mate to her. She deserved better. And that’s what I intended to give her, regardless of if she was willing to admit that’s what she wanted or not. Stepping outside the pack house I shifted into my wolf and bolted off in the woods. It was for more than one reason though. First I had even more acute senses in wolf form so I had a better chance at chasing Luce’s scent. Second running in wolf form helped to run off my rage quicker. It was strange having all this rage. I was never this temper triggered, it just wasn’t me. I was soft natured. Unless it was pack business then I wasn’t such a soft ass. But generally my temper never flared. So its typical that Luce would manage to raise this reaction in me. She had that way of affecting people in different ways. I couldn’t help but smile at thoughts of some of the trouble she’s landed herself in that I’ve bailed her out off. Especially in last six months. See I knew Luce was my mate over six months ago, but I knew she wouldn’t know until her eighteenth. So I kept quiet, wanting to let her discover it on her own. That and with how I saw she reacted when it came to mate talk, I well…wanted the opportunity to spend some time with her before she found out, so I could savour such moments should she sadly reject me. My wolf whined at the thought of rejection and I didn’t blame him. I didn’t want her to reject us either. It would break my heart. I’d loved Luce for years. Long before I found out we were mates. Discovering we were mates had just be an amazing moment that I was thankful to the fates for. Because I just couldn’t think of someone who would be a better mate than Luce. Well she would be if she was here. I whined before stopping and making a beeline back for the pack house feeling a little calmer and having lost Luce’s scent sadly to the river once more. 

Shifting back in the last of the trees before the pack house, I pull on a pair of loose fitting jeans that I leave behind various places of the woods for shifting moments. Walking towards the pack house I can’t help but run a hand through my hair in frustration. I really don’t know what to do. All I know is I will find her. As I head inside I’m met by Damon and Mya. I drop my head in respect to my Alpha and shame for shouting at Mya earlier. “Mya…I’m sorry” I mutter softly. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I look up into Mya’s bright hazel eyes. “It’s okay Jax. I understand” she says softly and I can see the worry and sympathy run across her features. I smile weakly at her. She tightens her grip and hugs me. I hug her back then step away, knowing that moping around is only allowing Luce to get further away. “Alpha. Do I have your permission to go and search for my mate?” I ask, backing away from Mya, who steps back to stand by Damon once more. I look up to Damon and pray that he lets me go. “Yes of course. Do you need any pack members to come with you?” Damon asks softly and I know he’s trying to be in full Alpha mode, but his emotions as a friend are coming through too. I mean afterall we’d been friends forever and well everyone loved Luce, even if she was annoying at times. I shook my head. “Thank you Alpha. But that won’t be necessary. It’s something I have to do alone” I say simply. He nods in understanding. I smile once more and turn to head to my room. I need some things before I can set off in chase of my beautiful mate.