I Just Want You

Chapter 27: Maybe It's Just a Dream

Chapter 27: Maybe It's Just a Dream

Travis' POV 

Two weeks later...

.....

It's been two weeks since Melody left. I haven't spoken to her once. My body needs to hear her voice, but I can't pick up the phone. The last few weeks have been a blur. I've been eating, sleeping, and going to work. But when I wake up the next day, I don't remember anything that happened the previous day.

I'm interrupted from my thoughts by a knock on the door.

To my surprise it's Alan. I decide to open the dorr. Part of me hopes that he's here to tell me that she's coming back, and to not mess it up this time. But another part of me knows that's not why he's here.

I open the door.

"Hey Alan."

"Hello Travis, do you have time to chat?"

"I suppose, come on in." I let him come in to my messy house. Melody kept it maintained much better.

I lead him to the kitchen.

"Can I get you something to drink?"

"I'll take a glass of water please."

I grab a glass and fill it up. We decide to sit out back and talk.

"So.." I say,

"You're probably wondering why I'm here? You're wrong if you think I'm here to tell you she's coming back."

The shred of false hope I was hanging onto fell, and it took my heart with it.

I don't answer, so he keeps talking.

"Look Travis, if you want any chance of getting her back around the holidays; you need to prove that you've been trying to get better. Sitting around moping is not going to bring her back. You may think you have all the time in the world; but you only have 5 and a half months to become a better man."

"I don't think seeing a therapist will help." I say stubbornly.

"She does."

"She's not going to come back anyways."

"If I know my daughter like I think I do; then she loves you with all her heart. I think if she believes you have truely changed, she will come back. The ball is in your court son."

"I don't know.. Are you sure?"

"No one can ever be a hundred percent sure. But I truely believe she will come back."

We sit in silence for a while.

"Melody has always had a strong faith in God. I just don't understand how he could leave me stranded here." I say.

"God didn't leave you stranded, he gave you a wake up call."

I don't respond.

"Maybe you should start reading the bible and going to church; on top of going to see a therapist."

"Do you think that's enough to convince her?"

"I think that's enough to make her fall even more in love with you."

"How should I get started?"

"There's a bible study/ suppport group tonight at church; it's for single men."

"I guess I can give it a shot."

.......

I had been sitting in a circle with single men for the past twenty minutes. It consisted of a lot of divorced men; I told myself I will not become one of them. It was finally time for me to share my story.

With a heavy sigh, I looked around at these strangers and started,

"Hi I'm Travis. I guess I'm here tonight so I can get on the path to show my wife that I can be a better man."

"Are you separated?" The pastor leading everyone said.

"Unfortunately."

"Why don't you tell us about it?" He continued.

I did not want to tell this man my story. But I will do anything to get Melody back.

"It started the day we go back from our honeymoon three months ago. I had found out my brother had died. I guess... I slipped in to a state of depression I suppose. I was really a jerk to my wife, and all she's been trying to do is help. I was so mean and neglectful for about two months. Then she got offered a great job in New York. She left two weeks ago to give me space and time to heal."

He nodded his head.

"How do you feel about that?" The pastor questioned.

Jesus christ this guy is nosy.

"I feel guilty and sad. It's been pretty lonely.. I was so selfish, and she way completely compassionate and sympathetic. She had grown close to my brother, and was sad too. I didnt even comfort her at the funeral. I was like this emotionless robot. I was and am a terrible husband. I just need to get better so she will come home. I don't think I can handle life without her."

He nodded.

"Thank you Travis." 

I guess he was done interrogating me for the evening. Thank god. But I have to say it felt pretty good to get that off my chest. Maybe this will help, after all. 

After the meeting I set up some counseling sessions at the church.

It felt good talking to someone else about how I was feeling; which really surprised me.

.......

That night I went to bed, I felt lonely.

I cried myself to sleep. 

I just miss her so much.

.......

The next morning I wake up. And for a brief moment I foget everything that has occurred; thinking that maybe it was just a dream.

I am woken into reality when I turn to look at my beautiful girl; and find an empty and untouched spot next to me.

***End of Chapter 27***

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