I Just Want You

Chapter 34: Just Because

Chapter 34: Just Because

Melody's POV:

Travis.

There stood the man I have ignored and longed for, for so long. There he was standing there looking handsome as usual.

Then there was me looking tired and fragile, and being able to feel my heart breaking inside.

I looked down hoping to god that he by some miracle hadn't noticed, even though we did make eye contact.

I sat there for a few seconds then peered over the top of my book. He was ordering his coffee. It looked like a vanilla bean frappe with raspberry and espresso.

He hates that drink, why in the world would he order that.

After he paid he looked around the small room. Then our eyes locked.

Oh. My. God.

I quickly buried my head back into my book.

Please just leave, please just leave, I chanted in my mind.

I really thought that he might just leave and save me the misery.

But once again I get my hopes up.

I hear him clear his throat and I can feel his presence.

"Uh.. Hey..." He hesitantly says.

I grab my coat and quickly start to exit.

I muster a small smile,

and say, "It was nice seeing you."

But before I can exit he pulls me back and turns me around.

"Can we just talk for a few minutes?" I can see the pleading in his eyes.

"I don't know if that's a good idea Travis.." I hesitantly say.

"Just a half hour, that's all I ask."

"A half hour, and not a minute more."

We sit in the back of the coffee shop, so that others can't hear our conversation I suppose.

I sit there twirling my thumbs and sipping my coffee while I stare at the wood table.

"So.. Uh. How have you been?" He asks.

"Fine." I say.

"That's good," He says trying to make eye contact that I won't allow.

"Yup." I make sure to pop the P on the word.

"Mel, it would help if you would try to make conversation."

I look up at him, with anger in my eyes.

"What do you want me to say Travis? Do you want me to tell you the truth? Because honestly I don't know if you deserve to know the truth."

He thinks my response over for a minute.

"Maybe I don't, but I'm trying to make an effort."

"Isn't it a little late for that?" I say coldly.

"I know I messed up. I get it. But I have been getting help, and I promise you I have changed. You just need to open your eyes."

"You don't get nor will you ever get it Travis."

We sit there in silence for a few minutes.

"So what made you change your hair?"

I just shrug my shoulders.

"I guess I just needed a change of scenery."

"It looks nice."

"Thanks," I shortly reply.

He just nods his head and takes a sip of his frappe.

I see his face start to pucker and before I know it I started laughing.

I immediately stopped when he grinned back at me with a glint of hope in his eyes.

"Why are you drinking that? You hate it."

"I've been getting one almost every other day..." He hesitantly says.

"Why?" I continue to question.

"Because it reminds me of you, and I can always picture how happy you were; and it reminds me of what I messed up."

"Oh. Uh. How's Silvia?"

"She's good. She actually decided to go on a singles cruise for the holidays."

"That sounds fun."

"Yeah, I guess."

I stare at his face he looks better but so full of sadness. I can't help but wonder if I'm the cause.

"How's New York?"

"It's good." I curtly say.

"Yeah?"

"Lonely, that's all." I mentally facepalm myself. Why did I say that?

"You could always move back home."

"I can't do that."

"Why not?" He says earnestly.

"Because I can't trust you."

"You haven't even tried."

"Travis, I can't take the risk of getting hurt again. I am finally okay. If I stay I will lose my strength."

"You don't know that."

"Believe me Travis I thought we would never be in this position; but here we are. So who's to say it won't happen again?"

"Don't you love me anymore?"

"I can't answer that."

"Why not?" He stands starting to get upset.

"Just because," I say collecting my belongings and pulling my coat on.

""That's not a good answer."

"Because if I admit that I love you, then there's no turning back. I cannot let you be my weakness anymore. I am tired of crying over you and asking the question "why". I am so tired Travis and I can't do it anymore."

With that I quickly run out to my truck and start driving home.

Leaving behind a very hurt Travis.

Why?

Just Because..

***End of Chapter 34***

Author's Note:

ooh la la... haha I hope you enjoyed this! Happy Turkey day!

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