Autumn Leaves (An Ed Sheeran Fanfic)

Goodbye to you

Thoughts swirled round my head, giving me a slight headache. How could I forget my own mothers birthday? My final family member, the only person I had, the only person I loved at the time. She was dead and I forgot about the day in which she was brought into this world. How?

Where was I going? What was I doing? I was so confused.

I sat down on the hard curb of the deserted street, crying my heart out. I held my head in my clammy hands trying the calm myself down. Why was I being so pathetic?

I could sense someone cautiously approaching me. They sat down beside me trying to be silent.

I lifted my head up and saw Ed looking at me thoughtfully, worry overcoming his eyes. I couldn't help but let out a slight smile through my tears. I must have looked a mess.

He held out his arms and I embraced his warm hug. I felt safe.

"It was your mum's birthday today, wasn't it?" Ed whispered in my ear whilst stroking my hair protectively.

I nodded lightly, refusing to release my grip from Ed. I loved him so much. He was always there when I needed him.

He could tell I couldn't quite talk just yet and let me be. After a few seconds he let go of me and I drew away from his hug.

"How did you know?" I sniffled.

"Know what?" Ed asked gently.

"That it was her birthday." I mumbled.

"You told me once, ages ago. You probably think I don't listen, but I homestly do." Ed explained.

"And you remembered?" I muttered.

"Eventually, yeah." Ed admitted.

I don't know why but I was flattered that Ed remembered every little detail of what I said.

"Jess?" Ed asked unsure.

"Yeah..." I was cautious.

"This might be a stupid idea, but..." Ed trailed off unsure.

"But..." I asked intrigued.

"When I was younger, I loved playing with balloons. When they always floated off in the air, I wondered where they would go. I came to the conclusion that they floated all the way to heaven. I know they don't but... oh it doesn't matter, I'm being stupid." Ed said.

"Ed, tell me." I told him.

"Why don't we buy a balloon, you write a message on it for your mum and let it fly away from the cemetery up into heaven?"

"Ed thats..." I began.

"A stupid idea, I know they don't fly to-" Ed started.

"Ed its an amazing idea." I interupted.

"Really? I mean yeah of course it is." Ed smiled.

So we did just that. We went into the corner shop and brought a packet of balloons and a sharpie then made our way to the cemetry. It wasn't that far away. Ed held my hand all the way there. I think he was scared I might run off again. Like a little kid. It felt nice having someone there to look out for me.

We arrived at the cemetery and walked passed all the abandoned grave stones. It sent shivers down my spine looking at the bad conditions they were left in. Unloved. We made our way to my mum. She was in the middle of so many others in the crowded space.

He stone was the same size as most of the others there. It was a grey stone and looked the newest of them all.

"Which colour?" Ed asked.