Autumn Leaves (An Ed Sheeran Fanfic)

Wake me up

I could hear muffled voices from were I lay. My eyes were jammed shut and refused to open but I was aware of my surroundings. I was alive. My suicide attempt had failed miserably. 

The room suddenly fell silent and I could sense the presense of a single person in the room. They held my hand tightly but I was unable to squeeze it back. I felt so weak. 

"I'm so sorry Jessica. I can't believe you're here." it was Ed's voice. "I know you probaly can't hear me but I'm sorry. Those things I said to you were horrible and you didn't deserve it. I was a mess and I honestly didn't mean it." 

Ed sounded genuinly sorry. Of course he didn't mean it. How could I have been so stupid? Ed clearly cared about me. 

"If you die, I don't know what I would do without you. I would never forgive myself. Jessica, please wake up. I love you." 

He loved me?! Edward Christopher Sheeran loves me? 

"Ed?" I croaked out. 

"Jessica!" Ed smiled the hugest grin I had ever seen. "I'm so glad you're awake. I'm so sorry!" 

"You love me?" I asked, a smile creeping on my face. 

"With all my heart and I'm so sorry about everything I said. I didn't mean-" Ed started but I held my finger to his lips. 

"Ed you idiot! I love you too." I smile and then we draw into a kiss. His lips crash into mine as I feel the sweetness of his lips on mine. 

"Does this mean you forgive me?" Ed asked. 

"Yeah, only if you can forgive me." 

"Forgive you for what?" Ed asked. 

"For being an idiot and jumping off the window." I told him. "It was selfish of me. I wasn't thinking." 

Ed chuckled to himself. 

"What's so funny?" I asked. 

"You're just so awesome." Ed kissed me on the forehead. 

"I know." I modestly grinned. 

"So are we cool?" Ed said. 

"As cool as ice." I commented. 

"Great. Don't ever do that again OK? You had me worried stiff." Ed suddenly got serious. 

"As long as I've got you, why would I?" I smiled at him. 

Ed started smiling at me like a freak. 

"Why are you smiling now?" I asked. 

"Because I'm so happy. People tend to smile when they're happy. You should try it." Ed grinned. 

I shot him a smile and he kissed me once again. 

"Ouch!" I yelped. 

"What? What's wrong?" Ed looked worried. 

"My leg." I breathe out. 

"Oh right. There's something you should know." Ed started. 

"What?" I asked scared. 

"You've broken your left leg and fractured you skull." Ed informed me. 

I feel my head and notice I have stitches across my forehead. 

"Oh gosh." I comment. 

"Don't worry. You will be fine in a few weeks. Plus you've got me to nurse you back to health." Ed assured me. 

"What would I do without you?" I smiled at him. 

Suddenly a familiar face walked in. 

"Jessica love, you're awake." Mrs Porter, my social worker announced. 

"Yep, I guess I am." I told her. 

"You gave us all a fright. Its been 4 days since the accident. How are you feeling?" Mrs Porter asked whilst taking a seat next to the bed at which I lay on. 

"I'm feeling pretty amazing under the circumstances." I told her. 

"Mr Sheeran not causing you too much trouble, is he?" Mrs Porter eyes Ed. 

"You know me Mrs Porter, never one to cause trouble." Ed grinned cheekily at her. 

"If you say so..." Mrs Porter commented. "Now Jessica, are you alright to talk to me about the incident right now?" 

"Come one Mrs, she's just woken up!" Ed defended. 

"Its alright Ed." I smiled at him. "I'm fine." 

"Yes, she's fine. Now if you wouldn't mind, I would like to talk to Jessica alone." Mrs Porter told Ed. 

"Please can he stay?" I asked her. 

"Well... if that's what you want." Mrs Porter reluctantly agreed. 

"It is." Ed's hand interwined with mine. "There really isn't much to explain. I was feeling low and did something stupid." 

"But why were you feeling low?" Mrs Porter questioned. 

"Because I felt alone. Like I wasn't loved, that nobody cared. I know now that I was wrong. My emotions were all mixed up. With my mum, Jake, Ed, my life... I just lost control." I explained. 

"Hmm. I see." Mrs Porter was in deep thought like she was contemplating something. "I'm going to have to keep you on suicidal watch." 

"What?" I questioned. 

"Basically you are going to have a close eye kept on you. You won't be allowed out unsupervised and someone will have to be with you at all times." Mrs Porter exclaimed. 

"What? I'm not a threat to myself or anything. I won't do it again if thats what you think." I told her. 

"Right now you feel OK, but your mood could change instantly. You're lucky I haven't decided to send you to a therapist, which I could do if any suspicious behaviour occurs." Mrs Porter said. 

I let out a huge sigh. 

"Its not like you were going to go anywhere special with your leg in this state." Mrs Porter examined. 

"I guess." I let out a yawn trying to tell her I was tired. 

"I can see you need rest, we could maybe talk later?" She asked. 

"Yeah... maybe." I replied and Mrs Porter left the room. 

Ed had been awfully quiet through my conversation with Mrs Porter but when I turned to look at him, I realied why. 

He was fast asleep. He must have been too worried to sleep. Bless him, he was by my side through out the whole time I was unconscious. I can't believe I was so stupid to not think of what my actions could do to Ed. 

He snored ever so quietly and I just watched him sleep peacefully on the shoulder of his chair. It looked uncomfortable but he looked happy, and so was I.