90210 (Travi$ Scott)

22• Hours Start To Question, Were You Even There

We both died of laughing.

"Damn you put up a good fight!" He said.

"I know it!" Our laughter concluded and we just sat there looking at each other.

"I don't blame that nigga in your group for crushing on you." He shot me a crooked smile.

"He's not crushing on me." I was flattered.

"He really is. He's falling just as hard as I am."

I looked up at him. "What?"

"Nothing. I ain't say anything, it's nothing." He ran his fingers through his braids.

"It is something if you're feeling some type of way about it. Jacques, do you have feelings for me?" I asked.

"No!" He said with a scoff. "I mean, I do but I don't."

"Fuck does that m-"

"No, like you know how you see a shoe you like but don't wanna buy it because the shoe is too high maintenance and you know you can't take care of it?"

"Last time I checked shoes don't live..." I tapped my chin.

"Of course, I'm just tryna say that I do love you but I can't because I don't even know how to take care of my own shoes, myself. How am I gonna take care of you when I can't take care of myself?"

"You've been smokin' somethin'..."

"I haven't smoked in a while, when I'm with you it's like I'm high. You are the weed."

This was so painfully awkward. "You need to stay off of Tumblr..."

"It's not making sense now but I know you know what I'm trying to say." He said.

"Kinda." I shrugged. Of course he leaned in and kissed me I kissed back but it didn't feel right. I didn't get those fireworks, I don't want to say anything because it'll make him feel like a fool.

"It's that nigga in your group isn't it?" He asked softly.

"No, it's just me. I don't know how to carry all this. I've felt the same way about you since high school but now that I know that you have feelings for me too, it doesn't feel right.

"You like a chase don't you?"

"Stop, I do love you but I don't want to give you half of me when I can give you one hundred percent." I felt bad, really bad!

"I can't even get mad at you because that's how I feel too but just a little different." He said.

I hate these awkward silences. I try to fill them in but fuck it.