90210 (Travi$ Scott)

57• If Sorrow Could Build A Staircase

• March 30, Monday •
• 1:50 p.m •
A/n: Rip Steez. This chapter is not made to be disrespectful.

"A young man that goes by the name of Capital Steez jumped off of the Cinematic Music building last night." The news reporter on the TV said.

I'm back in Houston and I've been crying since this morning. Jacques came to my apartment. I was going to shoo him away but I really needed somebody.

"I just wanna know why." I croaked while I curled up on the couch under blankets next to Jacques.

He teared up a bit. "Think about what his family is going through."

"I just saw him! And now his gone! What the fuck?! I did this didn't I?"

"No, don't blame yourself. His group ain't taking it well."

"Jamal Dewar's music collective, Pro Era. Friend Joey Badass says...he was a brother to all of us, we're shocked and very, very sad and not sure why he did it."

I turned the Tv off and sobbed. "I-I don't know what to do anymore! He's taught me so much! He taught me to love myself, to not blame everything on myself! So many things!"

Jacques hugged me and kissed my forehead. "I know. He was so talented and I admired him and his work. It's a damn shame."

I can't believe this. It's crazy how death works. One minute they're there and just like that they're gone with no warning. Just like that. I should've known!!

"I let someone so talented, aware and smart leave us like that." I said.

"Skylar it's not your fault. You were a good friend he loved being around you, right?"

I shrugged.

"Just think about all the good times. How you guys made each other feel. I was jealous of you two. Wishing I still had that friendship with you until I fucked up. I let money get to me but that doesn't matter right now. This is about Steez."

"It all makes sense now." I grabbed a tissue. "I was his only outlet. He would vent to me all the time, about how corrupt the government is, chakras and all this enlightenment stuff. Steez just needed a friend and I never noticed how lonely and how distant he was."

"Sky-"

"I was the only one he could talk to! I dismissed some of the stuff he said thinking he was just talking but every word meant something, I just wasn't paying attention!" Tears rolled down my face. "And now he's gone."