My Hero

Chapter 27

"I will always love you Phoenix! Always." He stated, his hands resting on my sides. I shook my head.

"I know you will love me." I said, looking down. "But not how I want you to." I whispered. He waited for a little bit, trying to process what I had just said. After a couple minutes, he gently lifted my chin with his finger and looked me dead in the eyes.

"Phoenix? Is there something you need to tell me?" I shrugged, feeling the tears well up in my eyes.

"I don't know Jesse!" I said, exasperated. "I told you guys I was confused, well that's what I'm confused about, you or Nico."

He sat there and stared at me for a little bit, trying to decide what to do next.

"Please say something Jes!" I pleaded.

"I-I can't! Do you realize just how long I've liked you for?" I nodded my head but he cut me off. "No! Phoenix I don't honestly think you do! I've liked you the moment I laid eyes on you! Since we met! That doesn't make a difference to you though. I broke up with Lila for you Phoenix! I fucking loved her, but I loved you more!"

"Loved?" He used love in past tense in my terms, he held up a finger.

"When I found out you were coming down because of Daisy, I broke up with her. I cried for an hour until Austin came in and asked me what was wrong and I told him everything. From the beginning to how I couldn't do anything because he liked you! He gave me permission Phoenix! I needed you! And once I saw you in the hospital, I knew that I wanted you! But hey! I can't just pop the question right there while you just left my near dead brothers room, oh no! That would have been rude. I loved you so much Phoenix and you could never get it threw your thick head. You didn't ca--"

"STOP!" I screamed, I had had enough of his accusations. By now I was crying.

"You don't DARE tell me that I didn't care!" I sneered. "I don't think you understand Jesse. I have liked you for so long but I kept it bottled up inside so no one knew, not even me. Does that make sense? I . Love . You . But YOU can't see past your giant nose to know that! You were so pissed off that I picked the Wilson's over you guys, but I did not have a choice. Believe me when I say this, I would pick you over them any day. Just don't ask me which person I'd save if I had to choose who got shot or not, because I love each family so much! You have no clue how hard it was for me to leave here. It was extremely hard. But you know what hurt me the most Jesse? Was that you didn't come over and say goodbye. That hurt. I didn't question or say anything, but it really hurt." I let the tears continue to come as I yelled at him. He was stunned to say the least.

"I couldn't say goodbye." he muttered.

"WHY!" I yelled.

"Because then I wouldn't have let you go Phoenix!" he yelled, looking at me with moist eyes.

"I love you Jes." I whispered almost too low for him to hear. I felt his grip on my waist tighten.

"I love you Phe!" he pleaded. "But what about Nico?" he questioned.

"Nico can be just another boyfriend I have in my life." I said with a smiled. My stomach flipped at the thought.

Then I realized.

I'm not ready to let Nico go yet.

"Jesse when my daddy comes home for a while and I get to be with him, then can we date? I don't want to do a long distance. Not with you. I care way to much about you." he seemed distraught as I said this, but then nodded sadly.

"I guess that's better then right?" I nodded.

"I still love ya though." I said smiling. He rolled his eyes.