His Little Brat. {Levi x Reader}

My Child II.(SquadLeader!Levi x Pregnant Reader)

-Play the song as you read if you want to. I did as I wrote it, so I hope it helps relay the emotions better. Enjoy!-

Time ticks by, and Levi soon loses track of how long he's been sitting in the same position for. His neck muscles feel stiff and his back complains, but he does not move. It's more like he is afraid to move. Hanji allowed him to stay by her side during the surgery, but there is only so much she can allow him to see. His hand tightens around your lifeless one as he stares into the wall with such pain in his eyes. The curtain prohibits him from seeing what is being done to your body, but he has to hold on to your hand, or he feels like he'll lose you forever. The heart wrenching sounds of your flesh being cut up, the enunciated wheezing of your lungs through the chloroform sheet over your nose, the clinking of the menacing scalpels, it all seems too surreal.

Levi can't recall the last time he saw you smile. He's been away for expeditions for so long, that he forgot almost all the happy moments with you. How could he not when darkness consumed every part of his being? He promised himself that he'd never get attached to anybody, that way he would be able to keep fighting through when they get picked off one by one. He owed it to those he lost during his first war. He should've known that there is no way that your love could go without being scalding by scorching pain. You wouldn't be in such a situation if he hadn't fallen madly in love with you. Levi's fingers tremble slightly as he attempts to control his emotions, but the tears don't obey his command. They stream down his cheeks, and he bites his lip to stifle the audible sobs. The whole room senses how devastated their commander is, and even their hearts feel heavy.

What would it have been like if his child survived? Would he be able to protect such a fragile soul? His mind wanders in and out of reality as his thoughts on his deceased child intensifies. To think about how much mental and physical pain you had to endure without him knowing, his own heart doubles over in pain. He was supposed to be there for you through thick and thin, but instead he brought such misfortune upon the one he never wanted to hurt. He feels warmth in his hands, and his head automatically snaps towards your hand with eyes filled with hope. However, a strangled cry escapes his lips as he feels the crimson liquid trail down his palms.

"Ah shit!" Hanji hisses as the team frantically moves towards your limp body.

Levi's body moves automatically, and his hand draws the curtain back despite Hanji's warnings to stay out of the surgery. His whole body freezes in time as the crimson grows like a flower from your stomach. The steady stream flows over the wooden table where your body lay, dripping on to the ground. Hanji's grip on the survival apparatus weakens, and she collapses on to her knees with her hands over her face. It dawns upon Levi when he can no longer hear your breathing. Nobody utters a single word, but their shoulders tremble in fear and sadness. Their squad leader's face darkens, and he lashes out to grab Hanji's collar before throwing a deafening punch. She doesn't even try to stop him.

"You promised me that you'd save her," his voice is hoarse and weak. "Hanji...I begged you to save her."

"I'm so sorry, Levi." she whispers guiltily.

"N-no. There has to be something..." Levi's words are harsher and his actions remain hostile.

He reaches over to your pale face with trembling hands before cupping your face desperately. He leans over your body, not caring in the slightest when he feels your blood soaking through his uniform. Levi cradles your head in his arms as he finally lets his sobs out. Nobody's seen him so broken, so helpless. He presses his forehead against yours before biting down on his teeth as each wail catches in his throat painfully.

"Please please please..(Your Name). Don't do this to me." he breathes against your cheek. "Don't leave me..not like this."

Death held you tightly with his cold embrace. It's so cold. Just cold. You screamed at him and tried to reach your lover who stood behind you. His usual stoic stance was reduced to a form that only belonged to broken men. His large hands stretched out as if he was begging you not to go. His mouth opened and closed, but no sounds reached your ears. You've never seen him so weak and vulnerable. Death set you down after you plead to him. You begged to stay with him, and he screamed for you to come back to him. But there's a horrible glint in Death's eyes, he tells you that he can only offer you enough time to say good-bye. You see yourself covered in blood, but more importantly, you see Levi crouched over your lifeless body. You want to touch him so badly, you want to be able to tell him that everything's going to be okay. But instead you watch as days go past. He refuses to leave your side for 2 straight days until he finally agrees to stand at the bonfire where your body burned before him. You turn to Death and he seems a little sympathetic.

"Why can't I go back?"

Death finally opens his mouth to give an answer.

"It's too late now, he already let you go."

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*CRASHES HEAD INTO A CEMENT WALL IN FUSTRATION*

I FEEL LIKE THIS ONESHOT SUCKED ASS. I AM SO FUCKING SORRY LOL. LIKE I WANTED IT TO BE GOOD, AS THIS BOOK JUST HIT 400K. BUT DAMN, THAT PLAN BACKFIRED DIDNIT!!!!!

BREHHHHHHHHHH.

WINNIE.