Outing Larry

Chapter 43 (Part 3)

A/N HEY GUYS THANK YOU THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR YOUR READS AND KIND COMMENTS. I AM SO GLAD YOU ARE LIKING MY STORY AND IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY TO READ YOUR COMMENTS AND HOW YOU ANXIOUSLY AWAIT THE NEXT CHAPTER. THIS IS PART 3 OF CHAPTER 43....ONE MORE PART TO GO. TYING UP LOSE ENDS. I WILL TRY AND UPDATE SOONER FOR YOU GUYS BUT TIME IS NOT ALWAYS ON MY SIDE BUT FOR YOU I WILL TRY MY BEST. A SHORT CHAPTER BUT I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO MY WONDERFUL FRIEND EMILY WHO REALLY REALLY LOVES OUTING LARRY. ENJOY MY LOVES AND ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU. MY GRATITUDE IS MUCH.

Harry's POV

I hold out my hand and place it against the wall to brace myself. I feel dizzy and my breath is short and ragged. I feel like I'm suffocating inside of myself. I believe I am having a panic attack. I try to take deep lung fulls of breath and steady my fast racing heart. I close my eyes tightly shut as all these emotions wreck through my body. I see white spots behind my closed eyes lids and I feel like I am about to faint.

I continue my deep breathing and thankfully my heart starts to slow down a little and my brain starts to function again telling me that this panic attack was a result to all that Louis had told me in there just now. I still can't believe or understand what he said. All I know is that he still loves me. That he still wants me. That he wants me to forgive him for all that he did and take him back. Haven't I wished for him to tell me all of this since the day he ended it with me? Now that I heard the words I have been wanting to hear why don't I feel happy? Once again its a raging battle between my heart and my mind. My heart is ready to take him back in a heartbeat but my mind is telling me different things. Things I know I have to face and things I know I have to tell him but I know I can't.

As soon as my body feels remotely back in my control, I pad towards Val's suite and knock softly. It takes only a moment before the door is opened and she peeks out at me, a worried look on her face. She must have been expecting me. She says nothing, just opens the door to allow me access inside her room. Her suite is empty so its just me and her. I turn to face her and I look at her, waiting for her to say something but she remains standing there like a porcelain doll, her pale face and large gray eyes staring at me from behind her glasses, her dark hair messier than usual.

'You knew,' I simply tell her. She nods once and walks towards the couch and sits down heavily.I follow her and sit opposite her. Usually she has a lot to say, in fact I never met a woman who can talk as much as she can but today she remains silent. I clasp my fingers together nervously.

'You knew and you didn't tell me,' I tell her, a hint of accusation in my voice. I feel betrayed though I don't know why but its the way I feel. I have confided everything in her so maybe I had expected her to say something to me about all of this before Louis had no choice but to tell me.

'I couldn't tell you Harry,'she tells me softly and my brain fails to understand why she couldn't.

'Why not?' I ask her. She sighs.

'Louis begged me not to tell anyone. It wasn't my secret to tell. Besides what's said to me is confidential.' Okay fair enough I try to reason with my brain who is throwing accusations in my mouth ready to throw them to her but I know better, so I try to focus my thoughts on proper questions.

'How long have you known?' I ask. I need to know the details of everything. I need to know as much as possible as to why Louis did what he did.