Outing Larry

Chapter 31

A/N BACK WITH ANOTHER CHAPTER. SORRY IT TOOK ME A WHILE BUT I HAD TROUBLE WRITING IT. I WILL TRY AND UPDATE MORE SOONER BUT SOMETIMES I GET STUCK. A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO'S READING IT AND LEAVES ME COMMENTS...I LOVE THEM SO SO MUCH AND YOU MAKE ME LAUGH. ALSO THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO KEEP ASKING FOR NEXT CHAPTER. I LOVE YOU TO BITS. THE SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER (AND I SUGGEST YOU LISTEN TO IT) IS 'LET HIM GO' BY JULIA SHEER. OKAY I WILL LEAVE YOU TO IT AND GO OFF AND START WRITING CHAPTER 32. ALL THE LOVE M.

Harry sat on his bed and stared at his phone feeling confused. Why was Louis texting him? Why was he even calling? Harry couldn't help the rush of excitement that flooded through him, the way his heart was pounding furiously in his chest in a good way and his palms were sweaty and he had to keep wiping them off on his jeans and how his mind was throwing hopeful scenarios at him. Harry knew better than to hope but he couldn't help it. It came natural to him. After 11 days,Louis was texting him...a lot and calling him! Louis wanted to communicate with him after 11 days! Harry couldn't help the small smile that made its way to his lips.

His phone began to ring again, making him jump out of his thoughts, 'Love Me Like You Do' filling up his silent room. He stared at his phone as Louis' smiling face lit up his screen. Harry just stared at it, his hands shaking and a goofy grin on his face but he was scared to answer it. What was he supposed to say to him? Was he even ready to hear what Louis had to say? He wasn't ready no! Whatever Louis wanted, Harry was not ready for it. He wanted to be ready but he wasn't! He decided to let it go to voice mail. When it stopped ringing, he went to his voice mail and played the message.

'Harry I really need to talk to you. I know you are not answering me on purpose and I don't blame you ba...uhm I really need to talk to you please just 5 minutes. Call me or text me if it's okay yeah. I....bye.'

The message ended. Harry looked at his phone as if Louis was going to pop out of it. He replayed the message again loving the voice that was talking to him, the voice he missed so much, asking him to give him 5 minutes. Harry got up and threw the phone on the bed in frustration.Could he afford to give Louis 5 minutes? 5 minutes could change a lot of things. 5 minutes with Louis could mean another life altering decision. Harry paced the room and ran his fingers through his freshly washed hair. He wished he knew what Louis wanted so he could decided if he should give him those 5 minutes or not. He wanted to but he dared not!

No you can't, his head growled at him.

Yes you should, his heart whispered.

Harry sat down heavily on the bed with a plop feeling torn. Secretly, he wanted to give Louis his 5 minutes but he was afraid to. He was afraid of all the emotions this would bring, afraid to be in the same room with him, alone for 5 minutes because Harry still loved him to bits and he knew it would hurt him again if he were to allow this. He wanted to, God he wanted to so much but he had to listen to his head and his head was telling him that it was a bad idea to allow him back in. Harry picked up his phone again and re-read Louis' texts. He felt the urgency in them and the need. Harry groaned and fell back on the bed and stared at the ceiling.

'Why Louis?' he groaned to himself. 'Why can't you just leave me alone?What can you possibly want now?' He closed his eyes and he decided he wasn't going to give Louis the 5 minutes he needed. Whatever Louis wanted to say, he could keep it to himself. He didn't want to hear it or know it! But he knew that that was a lie. It was a battle between his heart and his head but even though he hated it, he had to let his head rule this time. His heart was too hurt to be rational! He was going to continue to get dressed and go down to meet Jeff for a late dinner and drinks and have a good time and forget all about this and avoid Louis the best he could.