Outing Larry

Chapter 46 (Part 1)

A/N SURPRISE!!! BACK WITH ANOTHER UPDATE. YOU ALL WANTED THE UPDATE BECAUSE OF YESTERDAY'S CLIFF HANGER SO HERE IT IS. BESIDES I'M ON HOLIDAY SO I'M WRITING MORE SO EXPECT MORE TO COME. HOPE YOU LIKE THIS ONE GUYS ENJOY. 

The lights backstage were much dimmer after all the lights that had blinded him on stage. Harry squinted in the dim lights, his eyes adjusting. He could still hear the roar and the screams of the fans. Harry could feel the adrenaline coursing through him, his ears ringing from the noise of the crowd,his heart was furiously beating in his chest and sweat slicked his body, his clothes clinging to him like a second skin. His eyes focused around him and he saw faces staring at him: his mum, his sister, Robin, Jay, Dan, Lottie, Val, Shane, Liam, Niall. They were all talking. He could see their lips moving but he couldn't make out what they were saying. His heart was beating too loud in his ears and his breath was becoming short and ragged. He couldn't breathe. He needed to get away, out of here, now! He pushed past everyone and he ran. He ran down the corridor to the VIP lounge that they were using as make shift dressing rooms/make up area. He needed to be alone away from the noise, from the crowds.

He barged into the empty room, gasping for breath. He looked around the room not really seeing anything at all except Louis' face as he stared at him with those blue eyes, so tender and his angelic voice as he sang 'Love Me Like You Do.' What had Louis just tried to do? Did he really just try to out them in front of everyone? Is that why all their families where here? The fans! Harry felt panic rise within him. Even though he had caught on to Louis' plan and diverted it, he was sure the fans would have noticed something. He was pretty sure they would have noticed him standing there like an idiot, caught off guard. They couldn't fool their fans and fans tweet! They fucking tweet everything! They had what happened on cameras and he was pretty sure that they would see his stunned face, the surprise! They wouldn't miss this.

Harry felt the room spin and he couldn't breathe. His vision was blurry and turning dark at the edges. His heart was ramming against his ribs with a vengeance and it hurt. He felt fear and panic choking the life out of him. He felt hands on him and someone calling his name from very far away.

'Harry. Harry its Val honey.You are having a panic attack and I need you to calm down and breathe for me okay.' Harry looked at her with wide frantic eyes. He felt like he was suffocating. He gripped her forearms tightly and tried to talk to her but he couldn't. He tried to draw a breath in but his throat was closed and his lungs felt pressed by the heavy thumping of his heart.

'Harry relax. Please. It's just a panic attack from the adrenaline rush and what happened out there love. Listen to my voice okay. I'm going to sit you down.' Val gently moved him to the couch and sat him down. She sat down beside him and removed his hair away from his sweaty face and watched him struggle to breathe. He was gasping and his face was pale white.Sweat covered his face and some dripped off the edge of his nose.

'Harry breathe for me honey,' Val urged him because he was seriously worrying her. She had seen and calmed several panic attacks and they always freaked her out. Heck she had had a few of her own especially after Abel so she knew what Harry was going through. All the stress and pent up aggression from the past months had finally caught up with him tonight. 'You need to breathe come on now or I'll need to get the paramedics in here. Breathe with me Harry. Breathe in, count to five then breathe out okay.' Harry nodded but he couldn't draw in breath.All he did was take in sharp gasps. He could only draw in short breaths which left him panting as his mind replayed what had just happened and he was already having an overload of emotions from all that had been going on and his body couldn't process everything. He was vaguely aware of his mum in the room talking frantically to Val.He also heard Louis' thin voice panicking even more than his mum was.Harry tried to block out that voice but it was the only voice that pierced his mind.