Outing Larry

Chapter 36

A/N HEY EVERYONE, I TRULY APOLOGIZE FOR THE DELAY IN UPDATING OUTING LARRY. I HAVE BEEN UNDER A WHOLE LOT OF STRESS AND COULDN'T WRITE. HOW ARE YOU ALL HOLDING UP WITH THE DRAMA IN THIS FANDOM? I THOUGHT THEY WERE GOING ON HIATUS?? WHAT DO YOU ALL THINK ABOUT THE BABY? PERSONALLY, I DON'T BUY IT BUT GUESS WE'LL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE HOW IT WILL ALL PLAY OUT. OK HERE IS ANOTHER CHAPTER FOR YOU, A BIT OF A LONG ONE TOO TO MAKE UP FOR KEEPING YOU WAITING. THIS IS ALL ABOUT LOUIS (KINDA APPROPRIATE I THINK) IT IS IN LOUIS' POV....BECAUSE WE REALLY NEED TO SEE WHERE HE'S AT. HOPE YOU LIKE IT AND ITS NOT TOO BORING. ALL THE LOVE.

Louis' POV.

Our first concert in Japan was another hit. Another sold out venue. I love Japan. It is one of the places I love to be in most. Nothing particular about my reasons. I just like it. The fans as always were awesome. Japanese fans are slightly different than other fans in the fandom. They tend to be more quiet. At some point during the concert,Harry found it entertaining to talk without a mic and he was actually heard throughout the venue, that's how quiet it was. He's like a little kid sometimes. He gets excited over stuff like this. I feel glad that he is slowly returning to his usual self, that goofy,dorky, smiley little deer that he is. But the fans were happy and he was happy and I was especially happy when he called out my name and I managed to reply in my usual Oi Oii to him before I had to swallow down my very fast beating heart and excitement.

After the concert, I knew I needed to be alone so I retreated to the tour bus. I'd take the tour bus over a hotel room any day especially when I want to write something. Everyone has been planning to go out for Sushi after the show to celebrate but I'm really not in the mood for celebrating. Another 5 days and we have 10 days off which I need very much. I need to distance myself from all this and just go back home and be me. I'm glad Lottie is here though. She is Lou's apprentice now. My baby sister is learning hair and make up with Lou who turned out to be an old friend of Val and Shane's. They met backstage at our Perth concert and it was like a Brady Bunch reunion. From the little I paid attention to, they attended the same college and where friends back in the day when they were some sort of hippie groupies who stalked their favorite bands.

I was glad to see Jeff leave. That was a plus in my depressing life. He left after the concert in Perth and I have to admit, his departure felt like a weight being lifted off my shoulders. I know I'm a selfish asshole but I just don't like the guy so sue me! The way he hovers over Harry, the way he's always so protective of him, it just makes my fucking skin crawl and my nerves tingle. However, during our 10 day break, Harry is going over to L.A. I don't know why it bothers me so much that he is going to be spending 10 days with that twat Jeff. And I can't understand his obsession with L.A. He's British for fuck's sake! He says all his friends are there. Yeah Cara and Kendall and Nadine and Jeff! What about his British friends? He's got British friends too! I tell myself he's free to do what he wants now, see who he wants. I mean we're not together anymore so I guess he kinda gets to do what he wants. Then why does it fucking kill me inside to know that he will be there?

I rest my back against the couch of the tour bus and look at the joint Zayn gave me earlier tonight on the table in front of me. I know I shouldn't but I need it. I have been trying to distract myself by writing in my notebook, scribbling lyrics that are swimming in my head, things I want to say but I just don't know how. I feel tense and wound up and stressed. I throw my pen on the table, get up and walk to the small kitchenette and open the fridge, grabbing a bottle of beer. I open it and take a swig. My head is pounding. My ears are still ringing from the noise of the concert but I relish the silence of the bus. Lately I have been wanting too much of my own company and that scares the shit out of me because I have always been a people's person. I always love having loads of people around me. So this wanting to be all by myself is quite new. Its always been Harry and I and when Harry had to be elsewhere, I had my lads. Now I just want to be by meself. I'm turning into a depressive git.