I'll remember him 2

Hospital

(When I look at the first chapters I think they're actually terrible >< I'm thinking of writing them again cause they're so short and there are a lot of spelling errors in there. I hope they're better now, otherwise I don't understand why you guys keep reading ;) thanks! xx)

*Zayn's POV*

When I wake up the red numbers on my alarm clock show me it's 07:34.
I wipe me eyes before climbing of the couch. I put the tv off who's been playing the whole night while I was asleep. That happens when you fall asleep in front of the tv while watching the most boring shows in the middle of the night. I head to the small white kitchen and take a cup and fill it with milk. I eat my normal breakfast, cereal and orange juice. The memories of Liam and I eating breakfast together hurt me more than it should. Liam's absence in my life left a hole in my chest. He left me once but I knew he would come back, that it wouldn't be forever.
Now it is, I know it. I lied to him for all those years and the fact that I'm gay isn't helping me to get him back in my life. I need his friendship but the problem is that he doesn't need mine. I really need to stop thinking about him, it only makes the hole of emptiness in my heart bigger.

I put my plate and cup in the sink and decide to take a shower, in the hope it will wash all my problems and thoughts away. I need to be happy, I have the cutest boyfriend on the planet I dreamed of my entire life. But another bad feeling is the feeling there's something missing between me and Kevin. I love him, I really love him and he tells me he loves me but still... It doesn't feel like I hoped, imagined.

Before stepping into the shower I look at myself in the mirror. I'm such a fucked-up. My forefinger strikes the black ink on my skin. Before I was so sure about everything I did or said but now, since Liam is gone, I'm so insecure, I don't know what for. I have the feeling I have no plan B if something wrong happens, like I have no friends to count on. It's true really, who do I have? I have no parents or brothers to talk to, my only friend left me and my boyfriend is no option. Maybe I need to talk to Kate. She's the only one who doesn't judge me.

Before I realize I catch myself on calling her.

*Liam's POV*

I open my eyes and look at the clock, it's 8.12. I take a look at the beautiful girl who's laying next to me. I stare for minutes until a way too loud noise breaks the silence.
It's Kate's phone. I don't want her to wake up so I grab her phone to stop the sound. She really needs a new phone, this Nokia is older than the two of us together. I'll buy her a phone. I look at her screen, Zayn it says. Why would he out of all people call her this early in the morning? The sound keeps going and Kate turns her head, her eyes still closed. Without thinking I answer the phone.

"Hello Kate?"
"No it's Liam."
"Oh, is Kate there?"
"No she's asleep, why are you calling her at this time of the day?"
"I'll call her back when she's awake."
He's ignoring my question.
"Why do you want to talk to her?"
I feel jealousy filling my body, but then I realize this guy who was my friend is gay. Jealousy turns into relief but I still want to know what he wants of Kate.
"She's my friend, a real one who doesn't judge me."
His words hit me. Like he stabs me with a dagger right in the heart. He's right. I'm not there for him, I'm such a horrible friend.
"I'm sorry Zayn but you lied to me for all these years, I thought you trusted me." I admit. I'm not judging him because he's gay, he has to be who he wants to be but I can't understand why he didn't tell me in the first place.
"I know but you have to understand it's not easy for me either, I was scared of your reaction and like I knew you're judging me and I lost my best friend."
"I don't judge you Zayn, I have no problems with you being gay but I wanted you to tell me. I'm sorry if it seemed that way but I was just shocked." The words come out without thinking. I miss Zayn in my life, he's my best friend I don't want to lose him.
"I'm so sorry Liam, for not telling you and... Just for everything."
"Me too."
"I just miss you so much Liam. I don't want our friendship to end."
"Me either Zayn, you're still my best friend." I say. I turn back to Kate who's staring at me with wide eyes. How long is she already awake?
"You're my friend too Liam, can we talk some day?"
"Yea I'll come to your place is that okay?" I ask while staring into these bleu diamonds.
"Of course."
We end our call and I hand her her phone. Kate smiles and gives me a kiss on my forehead. She's happy Zayn and I are talking to each other again.