I'll remember him 2

Nightmare

*Astrid's POV*


'My first night next to Jake is finished.' I think like it was a task or something that I 'had to do'.
I still have my virginity and I'm glad. I want to save it as long as possible.
I couldn't sleep, Jake's slightly parted lips and slow breath distracted me from dreaming.
But my night wasn't just perfect, I heard Matt lately, Jake didn't hear him, he obviously sleeps through everything. Little Matt was screaming, and not just screaming, really screaming the lungs out of his small body. I quietly got out of Jake's bed and pulled his sweater over my head before exiting the room, I really wasn't going to put my dress on. I rush to the small bedroom down the hallway and open the door.
He's screaming, like there's a murderer in his room, trying to kill him. This is the scariest thing I ever saw in my life, and at the same time the most heartbreaking.

He's rolling from the left to the right under his blanket and shakes his head heavily. What am I supposed to do? Wake him? I guess so, it can't be good to let him 'sleep' this way.

I run to his bed and sit down next to him. I grab his shoulders and push them softly against the mattress.
His head keeps shaking but I've no hands left to stop him.

"Matt." I whisper as loud as possible. He's screaming less loudly but still... He's screaming.
"Matt." I try again but the kid doesn't seem to hear me again. I'm losing my patience. I never was a patient person but Matt is testing me.
"Matt!" I yell. His dark eyes pup open and stare into mine.
We keep staring at each other for a while, only the sound of our heavy breaths breaking the silence. Like we've been running for kilometers.

"Are you okay?" I ask the stupid standard question where I already know the answer on.
He only nods, tears fill his dark eyes that remind me of Liam's.
"Don't cry Matt, it's okay I'm here."
It's true, I'm here in my panties and his brother's sweater but I'm here.

A tear streams down his cheek as he starts talking. "Mommy." He cries and and his little chest goes up and down rapidly. "Where's mommy?" He asks me, I love this kid so much, this breaks my heart. I try to stay strong, strong for him but I'm not. I'm weak. A tear rolls down my face.
Who knows how often he dreams like this, Jake doesn't wake up to help him what makes me want to sleep here every night just to make sure Matt is sleeping well, like every three years old kid.
"Where is she!" He yells, bursting into tears now.
"Shhht." I try to calm him down but nothing seems to work.

"She's sleeping in her bed, she's okay." This were obviously the words he wanted to hear.

"Do you want to sleep next to me?" He asks me with hopeful eyes.

"Sure." I try to smile through my tears. He opens his blanket for me to climb into his bed with him.
When I lay down with his little arms around me when the door opens and Jake's head appears in the doorway.
I smile an look from Jake to Matt who already fell asleep. I strike his hair while Jake walks towards us.

"Thank you for replacing his mother."
Jake said, "No Jake, that's not what I'm doing I just..."
"Shhht, it's okay." He softly said and puthis forefinger on my lips.

"I already try to be like a father to him since his birth but being a brother, father and mother at the same time is not my thing."
He attempted to smile but I know better.
"You're doing a great job." I convinced him but he shacked his head. "No I know I'm doing it wrong but I try. I try so hard."
"I know you try, and you did a fantastic job so far." I said meaning it, no other nineteen year old guy would be able to take care of a three years old kid like he is.

The moment I saw Matt for the first time plays itself in my head. Matt was so happy and Jake was really taking care of him and raising him really.

He lays down, Matt in between us.
"I love you Astrid."
The words make me speechless.

"Uhm I love you too." I stutter. He chuckles and kisses my hand.
I feel guilty, I feel like I'm lying to him even though I'm not. I love him.

I do right?

Yes.




*Kate's POV*


"Liam, wait!" I don't want him to leave like this. Why am I so stubborn? I've always been and never cared about it but now it comes between me and Liam I wish I wasn't.

I jump out of the bed, what I better didn't. A terrible pain flews through my stomach like I've been shot.
"Liam wait!" I yell again and run to the door with my hands pressing in my side, trying to stop the pain.

I open the door the find a Zayn, staring at me with wide eyes. Liam isn't here.

Where... Where is he?" I ask, the tears into my eyes, again.
"He left." Zayn says, concern clear in his voice. My hands tug my hair as he wraps his arms around me.

"He'll come back, he always does."

I don't know what I have to think about those words. Liam didn't really leave me right? Cause when he did I lost the only thing that keeps me on this earth. The only person besides my small family that cares about me.

I can't lose him.
I would lose myself if I did.

Before I realize my head's on Zayn's shoulder. My gay best friend.

I should be a normal seventeen year old student but I'm the impulsive blond girl with the blue eyes that has a brother that quits school when he's nineteen years old, who wants to live in France with his girlfriend on an ages of twenty. I can't remember anything about my past because the father of my over-concerned boyfriend wasn't looking at the road and died after hitting me with his car.
Now I'm living together with that boy because my mother doesn't want me back home. Now a complete stranger for me, like everyone else in this intire world, tells me to leave Liam or she'll hurt us. We got into a fight while I was drunk and now I'm here crying on my friend's shoulder that told me he's gay.

Wow.

My life is a mess.


"I think I should go home."
He looks into my eyes with a frown.
"My house." I say, that was what were is eyes asking.
"You don't have to if you don't want to, you're my friend you can stay here as long as you want."
He's such a good friend, I'm jealous.
I want to be such a good friend as he is to me.
"I didn't thank you for saving me."
"Liam did for you." He smiles.
"Thank you Zayn, you're wonderful."
I hug him again and he lays his chin on my head. The way he does every time we hug, even though we didn't hug that many times yet. It's strange, he was Liam's best friend and now he's mine too and I only know him for a few months, how quickly things can change.
"If you can't keep up with your mother or Louis you know to find me." He says against the air above me. "Thanks."
"Stop thanking me Kate I love to help you."

I give him a quick kiss on his cheek before pulling out of his arms that aren't as strong as Liam's.

"Bye Kate." He says as I open his old green door.

"Bye." I softly answer and take a last look at the golden letters on his ugly door that seems like it survived a war.

I need to go home, take a hot shower, put comfortable pants on cause this skinny jeans is killing me.
Then I'll call Celine to ask if she wants to go shopping one of these days. It's weird but I miss my two girls around me. I'm always around Liam that I forget about calling them and do girls-stuff that normal girls of my age do. Once again it's proved I'm not living the normal life.



*Liam's POV*

I walk down the street, thinking about what I should have said to her to make her comprehend she has to stay away from Sophia, that freak is damn dangerous but how do I tell her without mentioning Lola.

Without thinking I walk in the same small bar as yesterday, hoping to find Sophia and hit her, hit her right in the face. I know I'm not supposed to hit girls but she is an exception.
I hope I find her and can feel her blood on my hands.
Damn what's wrong with me, I'm Liam Payne, I don't drink, I don't fight, I don't hit girls, I'm not aggressive.

Yes I am.
I changed.

Sophia is changing me and she knows it, it's exactly what she wants.
That's what drives me even more mad.

I order a beer and sit down in front of the woman around fifty that served my drink, she winks at me with her eyes that are wearing more make up than the makeup-shop down the street.

"Where's the blonde girl? I guess she's yours."
I decide to ignore the dimpled stripper and take a drink of my beer.
"Did you guys have a fight?"
"Would you just stay out of my business." I growl.
"Ho ho someone is pissed here." She tries to joke but I don't think it's funny, in contrast to the three old men that were here yesterday too.

I hear the door closing, someone entered the bar and everyone gets quiet. The air gets thick and I feel the eyes burned on my back. I take another drink when I feel sharp nails tracing the skin on my back. I turn around and throw my hands in the air, hitting her ugly fat cheek. Hah didn't deserve any better

"Hey Liam, looks like you missed me too." Her sharp voice slides through my bones like a knife.

"Listen, if you ever dare to come near Kate ever again or touch her with those ugly long nails of yours you're dead, did you hear that well cause I'm not repeating it."

The snake that she is starts laughing. I see in the corner of my eye one of the grey men covering his ears, and he has damn right.

"Liam, we both know Kate is a too easy target to let go. I will hurt her, so much she will never come through it. Did you forget about Lola already cause I didn't."

"How dare you speak that name without dying of guilt? How can you not even be ashamed of what you did to her? But I tell you Sophia." The name comes out with as much disgust as you can imagine. "You will never in your life get her, I promise you that when you do I'll get you and kill you. I don't care if I have to go to prison, you will never, never ruin someones life again."

"We will see." She says and tries to strike my cheek but I grab her hand and throw it down. She laughs again but turns around. Before walking out the bar she waves to me and blows a kiss. Urgh I hate her. I didn't know you can possibly hate someone as passionately as I hate her, it's indescribable.

When she closes the door all the people in the bar start clapping their hands. They should know where they're clapping for.




Haha midnight memories is awesome! Can't decide what's my favorite song, strong, little white lies, through the dark... I live every single one! What's your favorite song? Comment! I love to see you guys vote for my story, please keep doing that it warms my heart hah :)