Bound By Purpose

Time Will Never Be On Our Side

It was a long day with nothing but questions towards me, many of which I had no answers for. My morning consisted of a interrogation, the kind that presumed I may have given the enemy information while in the base. I was cleared with ease, however when I they saw my state. I visited Peggy who is awake and nearly up and about. I was interviewed by officials on the information I found. I knew nothing about what I had actually uncovered until today when they explained it.

In that office I had come across a schedule, some codes, files of the experiments, and I did find coordinates they believe to be the base in the mountains. Which is good for us really. Not one person tried to ask what I went through inside which I am grateful for but I know that Peggy will be willing to share. I know she'll try to glorify what I did but in all honesty I just did what I had to do to keep us alive. I even killed those men in the forest unprovoked, but no one will know those specifics.

I was checked on by a doctor and was cleared by said doctor. I have stitches in my shoulder, but my cuts have all cleared enough that I'm able to just have one or two wraps around them. I've been taking painkillers throughout the day but the truth is I don't mind the pain.

I haven't seen Bucky all day and that's all I want now as I search the bar looking for him. I try to avoid everyone else as I spy him across the room alone in a chair. Both of us alone. Both of us hurting. I place a hand on his shoulder as I slide into the chair beside him. He looks over to me and a smile spreads across his face. "Thought they'd never let you go."

I smile as he reaches for my hand. I stare at our interlocked fingers and say, "It was a long day." I look up from below to find him looking at me. His free hand finds my cheek and my free hand presses against it. I lean in and steal a quick kiss. I look around suddenly aware that there are other people around.

"Let's go for a walk." He says quietly. I nod and let him lead the way out. I hold his hand tightly as we exit the bar. It's cold and neither of us are wearing coats so we get as close as we can to conserve heat. We walk awhile without speaking, and that's perfectly fine to me because we're together. In an instant I'm a girl in Brooklyn again walking right next to my best friend on a cold winter night. Somehow I knew that we would be together someday I just didn't expect these circumstances. I know that any moment he will want to talk to me about tomorrow so I pull myself from my daydream. He's leaving again, and this time I won't be able to follow. Just as this thought leaves my head he stops me. I try to keep walking but his grip on my hand stops me from getting further away. 

I clench my eyes shut not wanting to hear it from his mouth. I slowly turn to him and bring my arms up against his chest. As I lay my head against him I beg, "Don't say it." His arms are quickly wrapped around me and we are swaying back and forth. "I need you to be here with me." I plead trying not to let him see my fear.

"I know." Is all he says as we sway. "I know... Time is not on our side."

I let out a small laugh. "It seems like it never was."

There's a pause but as he slowly pries himself away he answers,"Well maybe tonight it could be..." When I look into his eyes I see a spark and I know what he wants. Somewhere inside me I know I want the same thing. I bite my lip while displaying a small grin I then reach for his hand, and begin to lead him away to my quarters.

Peggy still hasn't been released from the hospital yet so for now our room will Bucky and I's. The whole wing will be empty tonight which means we can be alone. I have to say I'm nervous. I'm so comfortable with him and him with I, but I can't help but feel butterflies.  He grips my hand as we walk up the never ending stairway towards the room. My heart beats faster each step we take. I trust him with every fiber in my body and I know that after this war is over we will get married and be together for the rest of our lives. 

After what seems like a lifetime we finally reach my floor. I peak out the door just to double check that no one is around. I fumble with the keys as I reach my door, but he slowly puts his hand on mine to steady me. He slowly lifts my chin up at him. "We don't have to do this if you don't want to..." For a moment I focus on my arms and stitches and bandages but then I remember that he will leave me again tomorrow. 

"I want this." I whisper searching his eyes. I steal a quick peck on the cheek and then try to pull away but he catches my hand. When I look back into his eyes I see fire. He swoops me up and pushes the door open. 

He carries me over to the bed and sets me down. He locks the door and then tosses the key to the table. The room is charged with electricity as he makes his way over to me. We've been alone before but never like this. Before we would just hold each other all night in want, but tonight we need each other. 

I stand up to meet him and immediately he is against me. I put my palms against his face to study him before he pulls me in. The kisses are more intense than ever as he pulls me even closer to him. Soon we are flipped around and I push him down against the bed. I have no idea what comes over me but being a foot away is too much so I throw myself down onto his lap where I continue to kiss him. He's gentle with me as he runs his hands across my still bandaged arms and stitched up shoulder. I finally pull away and straddle him as he holds my face in his hands. "You're sure?" He asks holding me gently.

Confidently I say, "Yes."  As I start  to unbutton his shirt he helps me by pulling it off. I catch his eyes once more before we're both busy tossing the clothes about. I unbutton my dress as he continues to kiss me. the rest of the clothes go with it until I'm just in my under dress. My hair is undone and he's standing in front of me. The want is too much, before I can think further he's swung down over me. He crawls over me till we're face to face. His hands burn into the blanket beside my head. I love him so much and just for one more night I know that he can be mine. I bring him down against me wanting to be closer to him than I ever have before.