Ebony's Journey, Macarevhic's Story

Ebony

"My brother's and sister's I'm speaking you today on forgiveness. You see when we forgive somebody then we let go of all the anger and hate inside of us. You see Jesus died on the cross for us, so that we can have a clean slate.

So we won't have to pay for our sins. Jesus died so we can have the chance for forgiveness. Why can't we forgive each other instead of holding on to that hate." I nod my head in agreement to what the preacher is preaching about. The church is hot and packed. I haven't been to church in five years. I'm glad I came. Macarevhic is holding my hand as we sent down in the pews. Ivory listens attentively to the preacher's word. The church people fill the church with Amens, and hallelujahs.

"You see we walk around saying I hate you because you did this to me, or I hate you because you haven't been there for me. We should say I forgive even though you hurt me so long ago, I love and forgive you even though you weren't there for me. God forgives anybody if we ask for him too. When we ask him too he lets go and wipe our slate clean. If God can do it then we can do it. Anger turns to hate and hate turns in to evil."

I glance over at Ivory nod she's crying. I grab her hand and give it a little squeeze. "Our choir would like to sing a song about forgiveness. A larger woman gets up and starts to sing. I can't think of forgiving Arod right now. The pain is still too fresh, and I'm much to angry with him. I look at Macarevhic and it's not fair to him that I'm angry, I know I take it out on him and I don't mean too. He's everything I ever wanted, and that scares me a little too. I keep waiting for him to change.

I keep waiting for him to hit me or yell at me. I keep waiting for him to turn into Arod, and that is not fair to Macarevhic. I wish we would have gotten together when I'm able to handle a proper relationship.

"If you would like for us to pray that you would forgive some one or you would like to be forgiven please come up to the altar. People start to walk up to altar some are crying. Ivory walks up there, and she's is crying too.

I should walk up there, but I can't I'm not ready yet. They all bow down and pray. This is too much for me. I have every mind to just get up and walk out. Macarevhic wipes my eye with a soft kleenex crying too? I touch my other eyes and I feel tears.