xxx. I AM SORRY
written: september 18 two thousand 16
posted: september 30 two thousand 16
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YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE SO SORRY THAT IT'S ALL YOU CAN FEEL I CARRY MY APOLOGIES AROUND IN MY BACKPACK AND IN MY POCKET AND PEOPLE STILL WONDER HOW I GOT TO BE SO STRONG
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE SO SORRY THAT YOU ACHE FOR DAYS AND WEEKS AND MONTHS ON END BECAUSE YOU'RE SO AFRAID OF YOUR OWN CAPABILITIES AND YOU SINK WITH THE WEIGHT OF THE KNOWLEDGE THAT YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO WRECK EVERYTHING IN YOUR PATH
PEOPLE SAY TO BE UNAPOLOGETIC BUT ITS SO GOD DAMN HARD WHEN ALL I'VE DONE IS BREAK AND CRY AND CRASH. I AM SO SORRY YOU HAVE TO SEE ME THIS WAY BUT THIS IS WHO I AM UNDERNEATH THE EXTERIOR UNDERNEATH THE PRETTY FACE I AM A HURRICANE I AM A RECKLESS WIND PLEASE DON'T COME ANY CLOSER I WILL BREAK YOU TOO
I TAKE EVERYTHING BACK EXCEPT MY APOLOGY YOU CAN KEEP IT I DON'T WANT IT BACK THE MORE YOU TELL ME NOT TO BE SORRY THE MORE YOU TELL ME IT'S OKAY THE MORE SORRY I FEEL. IT'S NOT LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO TELL ME THAT I SHOULD BE SORRY THAT I AM BREAKING YOU THAT I NEED TO STOP SOMEONE TELL ME TO SHUT THE FUCK UP
MY UNSAID APOLOGIES KEEP ME UP AT NIGHT I AM SORRY THAT I AM ALWAYS SORRY I AM SORRY THAT IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY I AM SORRY THAT THE UNIVERSE DOESN'T MAKE SENSE I AM SO FUCKING SORRY IS ANYONE STILL LISTENING?
YOU ARE READING
celestial
Poetry"positioned in or relating to the sky, or outer space" because everyone I love, loved, and will ever love does, has, and will fascinate me much like the stars in the sky do.
